Sigh
I had hoped for a white xmas with OML….
Unfortunately everything is not going as expected. My whole Korea project schedule is messed up. Our team has zero morale right now…
So all my plans are also down the drain…
Damn
that woman again!
ARGGHSSSSSSSSSSSS
Labels: tupid things, work shite
Pissed!
*****Warning: The following post contains some unpleasant vulgarities and extreme foul emotions of the author. Viewers pls read with discretion and caution. Thanks and sorry for any inconveniences caused.******
I am so angry today.
This place is so fucked up that I’m so fucking sure I’m not coming back here anymore. The mgmt sucks, the people sucks, the pay sucks and the job sucks most!
I have never felt better leaving here.
They dun value u as an individual at all. To them, you’re just any resource to them.
The past week has been real shitty. Not forgetting all the crap Mr Lamer has been giving me as well. He doubted my professionalism and tried to take advantage of me, as usual.
I am so mad right now that I can’t even put my emotions into words.
To summarize, I have been bugging for my last day confirmation but no one bothered. So I decided that as long as I finish my work(no more outstandings) and knowledge transfer to Mr Lamer, I should be good to go. So, I planned for a short break. Everything is nicely planned and paid for. Still…no one wanted to respond to me. Anyway I decided to comfirm with HR today and he told me that they have denied me to offset my leave!!!!!!!!!Why? Because they feel Mr Lamer needed more time to get used to things?
*kicks, screams and pulls hair*
I took only 2 days to take over everything from the previous guy!!!!!!!! I dun see why Mr Lamer needs such a looooooong time to get used to things? He’s been doing this with me since end of June till now…why does he need so much more time for?
And if they didn't approve, why did no one inform me? HR said he was busy. WTF?Informing me of my last day is not part of his job?How difficult is it to drop me an email so I can plan things otherwise?Lame pple everywhere!
Am so blardey pissed right now I’m like a seething dragon. I’ve planned for a short holiday since. But u know what? I’m still going ahead with my plans.
They can piss off!
Labels: tupid things, work shite
Things people say...
I think I'm very affected by this new guy helping me out...
Mr Lamer been only getting to office like 10-ish and even 11am on one occassion. Our official working hours are 8.30am till 6pm.
I have my own set of rules when it comes to work and responsibility. I have never been late in my entire job history. I always believe in working efficiently, effectively, on time and on target. Which simply means if I can finish my work on time, I do it. If I don't have to work OT, I try not to. So, I never believe in coming late to work and going home late because I simply didn't have enough time to finish my work.
I don't want to judge how Mr Lamer works. Firstly I'm not his boss and he doesn't report to me. Secondly, he is clearly an adult who can jolly well decide his own work attitude.
But I am peeved when he said this to me today...
"Hey, can u try to cover me from 8.30am till abt 9.30am?" "I need to take abt an hour to travel to work....."Seriously, I was slightly peeved. Cover him? If he's supposed to be working from 8.30am means he has to make arrangements to leave his house earlier? What kind of excuse is that for coming late?
Sheesh...
Although I'm supposed to be recovering at home and working from home, I'm ought to cover u? And I thought u were suppose to cover me while I concentrate on my recovery?
Maybe I should start sleeping in till abt 9 or 10 now instead of waking up the same time still....I do have a better excuse than him?
Darn...the things people say....
Labels: farnie shite, tupid things, work shite
Update 2
It is times like these when I know I need comfort, care and concern and that support to pull through this.....
Instead, my parents havent been really supportive of the whole episode. Why? I think it's because they take my independence too much for granted that they expect me to handle everything myself.
The truth is, I'm kinda disappointed. Disappointed in the way they look at things in my perspective.
When I had felt something amiss last wednesday, they sorta dismissed it. Only when OML saw me he realised that perhaps a doctor's attention is needed. I didn't quite think of anything myself initially was because of my parents. The fact that they didn't see the severity of it.
Anyway, if not for OML, perhaps my face would have been alot serious? And he was the one who persuaded me to go for accupunture. Even his parents showed more concern towards me than mine. I must say that somehow, I'm disappointed by how my parents took this whole episode. If something like that happened to my brother, I'm sure they would have sought for the best doctors or specialist even? But for me, I'm supposed to do it all by myself, even when I'm the one who is supposed to be feeling all down and traumatized by what's happening. I don't mean to doubt their love for me, but I think they take my independence too much for granted.
OML has been the one by my side all these while, trying to accompany me to the accupunture sessions which I dun exactly look forward to. If he hadn't been there, I don't know if I could persist on. My parents havent even gone on one session with me even to the doctor and they still have the cheek to come nag me abt this. Telling me I shouldn't be bathing when I come home late at night blar blar and then sleeping in the air con because this is what happened etc etc.
I seriously don't need all these right now. I'm already saddened so much by this whole Bell's Palsy thing and yet they cannot be more sensitive to what I'm going through? I look like a freak for god's sake now! What else do they want from me? What comfort can they give me?
I just needed to get all these off my chest. It really hurts. The only solitude of comfort I can find now is OML. I think he is the only one who understands what I am going through right now.
He won't be able to accompany me for the next few accupunture sessions because he has a job to keep...he can't do this for me everyday....I do understand.
I just have to be strong for now I suppose...not for anyone else but for him and myself.
Road to recovery will not be easy...I'll need to have a lil more faith....
Labels: emo, tupid things, work shite
Update
Thank you to all that have shown their concerns to me.
Unfortunately I'm still unable to move my right face.
Been feeling total crap these days...feel absolutely like a freak.
Tried out accupunture last Sat. It was scary having needles arnd my faces and my hands.
Not only had I have needles sticking out of my face, they had electric current go through them too. It was a really really weird feeling....
After which the physician even tried to put some herbs on the needles and sorta burn them through into my skin. I don't know how exactly it was done because for one, I had my eyes closed and two, it was out of my vision. All I could feel is a heat rush into the back of my face and smell of burning matchsticks.
It wasn't a good experience at all but I don't think I had a choice. I'm going for my second session today this afternoon. The physician did say I will not see any results so soon. It takes abt 10 sessions or so to recover? I can only hope.
I have spoken to my MD this morning and he has graciously allowed me to work from home till I fully recover. I had only expected working from home for a week. Well, we'll see what's the status of my recovery I suppose....
As much as I tried to look at this positively....I dread waking up every morning to see the same freak face. And still not being able to move much even till today. Feeling depressed about the whole thing. Never understand why this has to happen to me. Mostly I'm concerned if I will suffer any side effects after? Studies have shown that some percentage of the people do even after recovery.
I really can't do much except pray that this whole episode will end soon with a full recovery.
Just so that you're aware,
1. Never sit too close the air conditioner till u can feel the air blowing.
2.Should u have an flu, always be careful to takecare and never let it go untreated. Flu can also cause Bell's Palsy should u aggrevate it causing inflammation.
Whatever it is, you should always takecare of yourself constantly! And I mean CONSTANTLY! Never take your health for granted!
Labels: emo, tupid things, work shite
^&%$!@#!$*@&#
I'm sorry but I couldn't find a better title today.
The right side of my face is temporarily paralysed. The right term here could be Bell's Palsy if my research is done correctly.
Totally feel like shit and looking like a freak! The doc said it could be cold air that is constantly blowing on my face that could have resulted in this.
Not even a year I have been working in this office and I've had like 2 totally unusual illness so far...
Okay..maybe is not the right word here...but at least unusual to me. I mean..What are the odds?!!!!????
The ear infection thingy which caused the imbalance in my ears was a result of my flu not recovering well. I couldn't recover because the moment I stepped into the office, my nose get clogged up again.
And now...the freaking cold air cold blowing on my face resulted in Bell's palsy! I simply cannot believe my luck in this.
Either the fengshui isn't too good at my spot or it's a sign that perhaps this is not the right job for me.
I'm feeling totally crappy abt it but yet I can't do much expect pray I can get better. Otherwise the doc did say acupunture is the next solution but I just dun like the idea of needles sticking in my face.
ARRGGHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Labels: emo, tupid things, work shite
Whiney
I am whiney today so excuse me....
I'm feeling like a MAN lately.
Every lunch I take orders, serve and pay.
Even OML doesn't do it all the time.
I.think.I.need.some.pampering.badly.
Need.to.feel.like.a.lady.again!
Labels: emo, tupid things
What is my Name?
My so called “Christian” name was added into my birth cert by mistake. My parents came up with my Chinese name and thought of an English name for future use. My mum had no intentions of putting my English name in my birth cert, but my dad had made the boo boo of putting everything in. So I have to live with that since.
So since then for every exams that I have to take, my name would be uber long.
I would say that I have a unique English name. Well, at least since birth until now..... Unique in spelling and unique in pronunciation until recently a lot of “spoofing” came around. Anyways, I hardly find someone of the same name as me. It’s not so common like Tom, Dick or Harry. I’m proud in a sense to be unique but I hate for the fact that people blatantly mispronounces my name like….EVERYTIME!
From Primary one to four, my form teacher has been calling me A for the long time when my name is supposed to be K.
Growing up, I have understood that it’s importance for people to get my name correct. So I would pronounce my name loud and clear everytime during introduction. I don’t know if it’s really that difficult, but my new acquaintances hardly get my name correct. My friends however have NO excuse. They HAVE to get my name correct. But colleagues, or even bosses….they can get my name wrong every so often.
This client of mine is totally hopeless. And no thanks to my boss whom I have never met, she was the one who started misspelling my name from my first day of work in the emails since. I can understand the confusion at first. But with proper introduction and from the YM to emails to telephone conversations, this client still can never ever get my name correct. Not even in spelling! It’s been like wat…8 mths? Is my name really that hard to remember?
The rest have somewhat managed to get my name right, maybe not so much in pronunciation, but at least try to get the spelling right? It’s depressing! Even my ex boss mispronounce my name like forever? And so did my ex colleagues…it’s like they have been conditioned by my ex-boss. The only comfort I have now is….my MD actually gets my name correctly in spelling and pronunciation!
*sigh*
Labels: emo, tupid things, work shite
Something Tupid
Something stupid happened today....
I hit my head against the toilet door....
Now I have a visible red line on my forehead...
How apt....the weekend is coming already...
Arrghs...and I have cramps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sobz*
DUMBO ME!
Labels: emo, tupid things
