Weird
I received an belated greeting email from an “old” guy friend today….so why is the old word in inverted commas?
Well, this is because he really is old, and we hadn’t talked for a looooong time.
I got to know this friend during my studies in Australia. We belong to a bunch of Singaporeans who happen to be in the same class, so we hung around a lot.I was actually quite close to this friend for awhile because I hadn’t had a lot of friends there, and being at a new place and all made me fear unfamiliarity.
Anyway, I guess somehow this guy became kinda interested in me. The reason why I used the word kinda is because, he isn’t the kind of guy I would describe as a nice guy. He’s more of a typical ah-beng style kind of guy. He smokes, dyes hair, speaks hokkien, totally ungentlemanly I suppose? And the fact that he’s interested in me is so he could copy my homework and I guess I was just so conveniently there for him to fancy!
Well, anyway I’m glad nothing came out of this who admiration thing….perhaps he was just lonely. So when he felt that he was going no where with me, he moved on to a next target really quick. There’s more to this story but I guess I’m not in the right mind to be nostalgic….esp about him!
So anyway, we sorta lost contact ever since he got attached and came back to Singapore. But one fine day…I think it was my last year’s birthday, he popped out of nowhere with a birthday greeting email. It’s funny because I thot we weren’t friends anymore. He was quite an asshole for awhile and we hadn’t talked since.
I was totally taken aback by his email. At first I thot “Hey, I’d give this man my benefit of the doubt, maybe he’s matured and thought how childish he was back then and wanted to rekindle the friendship.”
So I replied his email, thank him for remembering etc etc…but I was in for a surprise. Well, not really a surprise, more of an “enlightenment”. Because he started flaunting about his job at a big organisation and that he’s getting married blar blar and wanted to invite me blar blar. Not so much of a shocker there really…like I said..he ain’t so much of a gentleman. I still wonder what his wife sees in him. His family is quite well to do? Hmm...then again maybe I’m just biased? I didn’t attend his wedding at all. Couldn’t be bothered really, he probably eyed my “ang bao” more. I just gave him such stupid excuse and shrugged the whole thing off!
So…back to this email he sent me. This time, he sent me a belated birthday, citing “better late then never”. Being gracious, I replied and thank him…didn’t wanna be rude.
So he started revealing that he’s shifting to the neighbourhood near me…in fact after exchanging emails, he’s divulged he’s staying in the condo next to mine. Goodness! Then he went on to talk about his wife being pregnant and blar blar blar…
I smiled reading his email….wondering why is he telling me all these when we weren’t even talking for the longest time. I mean…I don’t even have his mobile number! We never had dinner together, never talked about work or family like long-time friends. It’s like…so weird having him telling me all these things! If u had come to me as a friend who is genuinely concerned about my well-being and not going non-stop about how u’re living your life right now, I just may believe your sincerity. Unfortunately, it’s all about him…as usual…
Ha! I just had to laugh…perhaps I’m biased, but I think the only reason he’s doing this is to brag to me about how happy and rich he is now. Sheesh…grow up man! I’ve never regretted the fact that I hadn’t chosen u. I’m very happy with OML right now. Thank you!
Fate
Fate has somewhat a hand influencing my life sometimes. To a certain extend, I do believe in fate. Because I think fate is something that we can’t escape from. As much as we have the choice to choose, fate dictates the choices we’re given and the route we take, pending our choice.
My company has been actively recruiting lately. Seems that there are some projects in the pipeline. Anyway the weird thing is, this new guy, who came in last Thursday, came from the company that I’m going to join. And it seems that the next potential guy who’s coming to “replace” me, will also be coming from this company. It’s almost like an exchange program! Only there’s not turning back.
I can’t help but wondering if I’ve made a good choice in moving to this company. Seems that people can’t wait to leave that place? My boss and my HR did mention briefly if I’m prepared to travel with the new job, because that’s one of the primary reason why people are leaving over there.
I’m not going to lie….I do feel rather apprehensive about the whole idea. It’s silly because I am quite an independent person. I should be very used to traveling, having spent 3 and half years in Aussie studying. I’ve also traveled to Philippines for 3 months, flying to and fro every week last year. So why do I feel the apprehension? Is it the new environment? Different expectations? Leaving my comfort zone? I guess it’s a bit of all….
I need to clear my head again and tell myself that I’m still young, the exposure will do me good! If I don’t try now, I might leave to regret it. As long as I have the understanding and support of my loved ones….nothing is impossible?
*smiles* with fingers crossed
Taken for Granted
Taken for granted is never a good feeling.
Everywhere I’m taken for granted.
I just don’t get it. Whether it is at home, in the office or by OML, I’m always taken for granted.
I know that it’s human nature to take certain things or certain people for granted, but when is it considered too much?
At home, my parents never fail to take me for granted, even my brother. I know I take my parents for granted too, but I always try and make an effort to make a difference.
My brother has a bad habit. He will always pee and stain the toilet seat and toilet bowl. But yet he doesn’t bother to clean it up, this will in turn stink up the entire toilet. And since my room is the closest to the toilet, my room will always be filled with the pungent ammonia smell….
I probably will never understand but why is it so difficult to just aim properly? Even if he did not do it deliberately, why can’t he make an effort to clean it up? I think he takes for granted that someone will do it for him…even with constant reminders, he still does it. Don’t get me wrong…I still love my dear brother but there are times when I really find it irritating that he’s so inconsiderate!
I was just telling my mum this morning and she rebukes me about having to clean up my mess too! Sometimes I’m really upset when she tells me things like that, because when did I ever had her to clean up such mess? I’m quite a clean freak and I’m always considerate to others when it comes to personal hygiene like this….And even if she complains about something, I will always make an effort. I will always try to help her with chores and stuffs, I know being a housewife and all can be quite demanding sometimes. Having to wash, clean, cook and stuffs, but I do try to help sometimes. I mean we all have our roles to play in a family, but all I’m expecting is for my brother to understand what is showing consideration to others. Is that wrong? Does that make me a bad sister? And she has to tell me this kind of things? She’s obviously condoning what he is doing right? I know my mum dotes on my brother more. She pampers him so much, doing everything for him. Anything that I do probably can’t compare to him in any way. She even suggested I help him “clean” up his mess, saying that we’re all family and we should help him out. I wonder when he goes into NS, is family going to be around and clear his mess? If he goes abroad for studies, is family going to be there for him too? And when he gets his own family…is he going to rely solely on his wife?
I’m just angry that my mum gives me such a response instead of educating my brother to be more responsible and be considerate to others. He’s not the only person using the toilet and his room ain’t the one closest to the toilet. Must we always condone his actions and spoil him to such extent? He’s never ever going to learn this way….I really give up!
If my mum wants to take me for granted…so be it…I will not be guilty the next time about taking her for granted…
If I can make a wish this birthday….I would wish that I won’t be taken for granted, ever ever!
Finale
It is official!
I have tendered and will be giving a month’s notice.
And the farewell gift that I’m getting, is to have to work next weekend and on my birthday!
How exciting!!!!
Let’s all cheer and clap and be all excited….NOT!
Totally bummed! =(
Waiting....
It’s been 3 days since my decision….
However my boss has coincidentally been on leave. I wonder if she knows….Anyway, she will be back tomorrow.
So…tomorrow is D-day!
I haven’t exactly rehearsed what I will be telling her tomorrow. I guess I’m leaving it to impromptu “performance”. Honestly, she’s been nice to me throughout my stay here, and I’ve learnt a lot since. It may seem that I’m ungrateful to leave now, but with my mentor’s jump to another company, my learning curve has been dropping since. My “new” mentor hasn’t been free enough to do a lot of things. I have been following up a lot on her admin stuffs and trying to do her job whilst doing mine, all because she claims to be very busy with other stuffs. I guess I got a little frustrated because I feel like a spare tyre ….I’m always the back-up of somebody. When will I ever get my own role and own responsibilities? That is why I really need to get out of this “confinement”.
I hope the pasture is greener in my new environment….but before that…it’s always the waiting game…I need to brace myself for tomorrow’s “impact”. It will be another sleepless night…I’m too much of a thinker…I know…
Moving on?
My 3rd round of interview went smoothly. I have been offered the position and quite abit of increment. I would say I’m very tempted, considered it’s a much bigger company, much better staff welfare and benefits. Of course, with the new offer, there will be more work, more weekends burnt and probably more stress?
I guess considering the fact that I’m still young, I’m willing to take my chances. I mean, how long can one stay young? While I’m still young with not too many commitments, I should test my limits out and see how far I can go rite?
The only thing left now is, I feel abit guilty about leaving this place. This place did have fond memories. Although there has been a lot of changes since, there’s still some people whom I will miss dearly. The apprehension of adapting into the new company/culture makes me feel like it’s first day of school all over again.
I guess ultimately it’s about leaving your comfort zone and adapting to a new place. After being accustomed to how things function here and who are those colleagues you can really relate to and take as friend, it makes me wanna think twice. But a good friend/colleague told me that I shouldn’t be too emotional about such things and should take my own career and future as the first priority. Perhaps to a certain extend I agree with her…but knowing myself, I think it will be very difficult to break the news to my boss….
Wish me luck….
Sad day....
It’s a sad day…
I read with grief today about a demise of a great man….
Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and environmentalist known as the "Crocodile Hunter," was killed this morning by a stingray while filming an underwater documentary on the Great Barrier Reef.
For those who have cables at home would know he is a popular icon of the Animal Planet. His documentaries were always fun to watch. OML and myself really admired his work with the animals. It’s not everyday u see a man so committed to saving the wild and educating us of the importance of every single species in the animal kingdom.
What is even sadder is the fact that his family is still so young…His wife is 41, his eldest gal is 8 and his son, turning 3 soon.
I was lucky to have met him in person when my parents were in Queensland and I had brought them to the zoo that was founded by Steve Erwin’s parents. He has managed to sustain the zoo through various projects, fundings and donations from the public. He was a very humble man. Very humorous and really devoted to saving nature. We saw his whole family there including his young daughter, Bindi, a very intelligent young gal. She has the makings of her dad actually….but now, haiz…it’s really tragic.
My utmost condolences to his family and friends and I pray deep inside my heart that they will be strong and carry on the legend of Steve Irwin.
Lalala....
I’m again superbly glad it’s Friday!
I’ve had a tough week. This flu bug of mine still doesn’t want to leave me…
I really need this weekend to take a good rest, hopefully I can recover fully before the start of next week.
This week was really horrible because amidst the whole flu bug and all, my colleague has to choose this time to go for vacation. With that, I have to take over all of her stuffs…not that I’m mean or anything, but can she choose a better time? We are in middle of a whole lot transition of things and she choose this time when I so sick to leave everything to me? Haiz…I’m so tempted to return the “kindness” someday….
My bdae is happening this month! Yay! Not that it’s really exciting or anything…bdaes have somewhat evolved to be any other day these days…esp when you’re over 21. Time just whoozes past so quickly!
Anyway I’m trying to get myself a reason to lighten up this time. It’s been awhile….
So….what should I do? Organise a bbq? Go shopping? Or travel out of Singapore? I very much like the 3rd option, but I think work will have some impact then…so..it’s wiser to be in town.
Well…let’s see how things go…maybe I’ll just find some sugar daddy to let me go on a shopping spree? Whahahahahaa…
