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Hmm..it's been awhile...
Lots been happening but I havent had the real energy to blog...
Started on a new game....kinda started on a new web based game...good for killing time really...the game's
Travian. Check it out if you are keen...
Visited the St James Power Station over the weekend...nah...not really my cup of tea..it's either I'm getting old or that I was hanging with a wrong crowd that night, or simply...I'm just really tired.
Hmmm...I fancied this wilson tennis racquet...it's a women series...but I thot it's a tad expensive...don't know if i should get it thou...since the tennis court at my place going to be renovated...arrghs..shld I get it as a Xmas gift for myself?Let's see...
Well..Xmas is coming...but I dun exactly feel the whole Christmassey holiday mood...maybe cos everyone's taking leave and taking breaks while I'm stranded to my new job...sad....*sobz*
And today, OML did something rather insensitive...Got me upset...Woe is me now...Boohoo!!!!!
Alone
Ever feel like you need to get something done yet u can't?
Not because you really can't do it but because it's not your area.
Then u start looking around....
But all u feel is....alone...
It is times like this that I do hate my job. Sense of helplessness!
*grit teeth*
Short note
It’s been a tiring weekend…
Been plagued by the incessant headache spells again…sometimes I wonder if I’ve really got a tumour somewhere in my head..sheeshhh…
Anyway, although the weekend was tiring, it was considered constructive…managed to get a new pair of shoes for tennis (my old pair of sports shoes ruptured…sigh)…also managed to get 2 demo tennis racquets for trials for my lessons on Sunday…I’m a fan of the Wilson W2/W4 series…but…I think it’s going to burn a huge hole in my pocket…shall see if there are good yet cheaper alternatives out there…haa…
Well…been feeling broke for a long time already…counting down to my pay day!!!! Xmas is coming…not a good time to feel broke!
I’m blabbering right…
not enuff sleep + grogginess + hovering headache = stoned me
I feel like going to the doc and go home sleep…unfortunately…I’ll have to take no pay.
No way…I have to persevere through!
What GST hike?
There’s been a lot of discussions going around with the recent mention of the GST hike by our PM Mr Lee Hsien Loong.
This is quite a surprise to me because with the recent MRT suicide cases, there have been issues raised as to why the poor income families were not given the appropriate help when it was needed resulting to such desperate “measures”. Amidst all the finger pointing, the government has decided that a GST hike can solve all issues? Greaaaat!
I must say I’m totally bewildered by this outcome.
In my personal opinion, with the recent hike of mrt prices, electricity, cab fares etc etc, I’m really beginning to see why the richer in Singapore gets richer and the poorer gets poorer…
The rich obviously can grow their money easily. I mean, let’s face it…there’s a saying in Chinese that 钱能使鬼推磨- simply mean that money can make the world go round. It’s really as simple as that.
As for the poor, why do they get poorer? Just keeping up with the hikes in our daily expenditure is enough to kill.
Singapore is no longer as naïve and innocent as before….there’s lesser and lesser compassion and lesser and lesser empathy going around. Everything else is about money, more money and not forgetting…status.
Whoever can beat the crowd and become the “elite” of Singapore gets to have the best life planned out, say the darnest things and still get away with them. Our dear
Miss Wee Shu Min was one example to depict how the “elite” here obviously have their nose too high in the clouds to see and understand what it’s like to be a commoner, where jobs are a necessity and not a luxury.
With the income gap ever widening and the job market only slowly picking up, our government finds this the right time to increase the GST? Forgive me to rant on this but I don’t quite understand why this should be a solution? I don’t belong to the poorer income but neither do I belong to the elite…in this case, where should I belong?
The GST impact on me? My pay will definitely stay the same cos I dun think any company will raise their employees’ package just cos the GST is rising, but yet I’ll need to spend more on necessities. And remember, I don’t get help either, cos I dun fall into the many conditions of being POOR. I just need to fend for myself for now, perhaps in due time, I just might qualify being POOR and get help….isn’t that great? I can afford to be poor now…can’t hide my joy….Yay!!!! -.-“
New Day
A new day….a new start.
God bless.
Alone
It’s a sad day for me today….
A whirlpool of things happened to me over the weekend….
Don’t even know where to start….
Just feeling kinda blurry about things…
Numb is the right word…
I just want to be alone now…
Revelations
The environment here is really cold. Even the cleaners here aren’t what I call friendly….well…I don’t expect them to be all smiley cleaning toilets, but at least smile when someone greets u? well…maybe it’s just me huh?
I guess it’s been a huge change to my previous work place. You win some and you lose some…you hardly get a choice where u get the best of everything…that’s life I suppose.
Looking on the brighter side of things, this change allows me to be more emotionally independent. I get to choose where I go for lunch, what to eat, how long to eat and if I want to go shopping after etc etc. Unlike before, I then to rely more on others to make “my” decisions and simply follow suit. I get a different kind of independence here.
I know it is some contradiction because I have been on my own in Aussie for about 3.5 years. Theoretically I ought to be very independent. Well, I am. I can cook, clean, wash and take care of myself and someone else. Just that I find it hard to be having a meal alone in crowded places. I can eat alone at home…but I just found it difficult to be eating alone outside the comfort of my own home perhaps.
Yeah..you probably think I’m weird…but…heh…nobody’s perfect huh? =p
So looking at the brighter side of things…this new company has given me the opportunity to test my limits. Forces me to be more emotionally independent. The freedom to do whatever I want during lunch time…good practice for me....=)
New Accomplishment
I’ve had my first “solo” lunch today at the foodcourt…..
Why should this be an accomplishment? I’ve never really had my meal in the “open” before. At times when I have no company for any meals, I will either make sure I find someone or that I will simply pack lunch home to eat.
In this case, since I had no one to lunch with this week yet, I thought I try eating on my own. And yes…I did it! Haa…
I guess in my whole life, I have been blessed to always have someone to eat lunch with. With this new culture, I guess my “blessings” sorta ran out and I just had to be independent. At first I didn’t like the idea, simply because I really wasn’t quite used to this. At times when I really had no one to have a meal with previously, I would always pack home. And in this case, I had packed sandwiches and ate them whilst reading newspapers in the pantry.
Today, I actually had lunch on my own at the foodcourt.
Revelations: It ain’t as bad as I thought it would be. I get to choose where to go, what to eat and of course, can eat as slowly as I want to. And after lunch, if I still have some time on my own, I can walk around to wherever I feel like it. Hee…I can choose to skip lunch and go shopping too!!! Chinatown’s not too far from here…and if I have any errands I need to run…I can choose to do it anytime and anywhere I deem fit. Hee…
I think I’m starting to take a more positive side to this whole new job, new environment, and new culture feat. Feels good to be able to do whatever u want…
Let’s see what happens few months down the road huh? =)
Back
Hmm…it’s been quite awhile since my update….
Somehow I wasn’t really in the right mood…
Time really flies these days…I remember when I was back in school, time seemed so slow…maybe because then u were hoping that time could go faster, so that u will be older and be able to do more things…but now…the exact opposite!
Life is full of irony isn’t it? Now that u’re all grown up and a working adult, u’re hoping that time can slow down a lil for u to catch up with the smaller things in life….you’re now hoping your birthday doesn’t come each year….haha…
About 2 weeks into the new job…had a culture shock on my first day. Waited at the reception for about 1.5 hours….felt like some zoo exhibit with people coming in and out…
Since the environment is very mobile here….the HR did not really intro many people here in the office. Most consultants here do not have a fixed sitting arrangement…so..people come in and out all the time…he probably dun remember half of their names anyway…
For me, I am doing support for starters so I have a table that I have to sit cos I need to man the support phone. Kinda sucky because people can come and go as they pls but I can’t…sigh…but then again…I can always route the calls to my mobile…hurhurhur!!!
Not that I intend to do it now…but we’ll see how it goes…I don’t want to remain in this position for so long..it is boring simply waiting for “things” to happen.
I’m slowly getting used to things here, cos I hardly know many people here, I take lonely lunch…well…I guess this is the lifestyle of the consultants here? It’s a matter of getting used to the environment…a very different culture but I have to learn to be independent huh? Perhaps things would be better 3 mths down the road…=) *keeping my fingers crossed*
All things aside…my parents have been away for the past week, holidaying in china…and I’m the part time maid and baby sitter for my bro…this is tiring man…hence the even lack of blog updates…
All others…I’m very broke…need to get new clothes for the new job…no more jeans day…and I haven’t got my pay for Oct cos I missed the pay day…darn…I will be broke for Nov too…
