Short Take
Haven't been blogging much lately.
Not exactly sure what to blog either.I like blogging, because sometimes blogging somehow acts as a form of refuge for me to pen down my thoughts. But yet, I find my writing so amateurish and really....nothing interesting at all. Maybe I should just end the whole blogging idea and start a personal journal instead. LOL.
Sidetrack....went to Daz's alumni concert yesterday...it was nice. I really miss those times performing on stage and all the fun and laughter backstage.
Oh wells, I might never get another chance to sing I suppose. Throat is rusty already and time is definately going to be a problem now with a full time job. I don't seem to even be able to get a life yet....how to go back singing?*sigh*
Hmm....I should end with a happy note....
Okay, I'm on leave today. Will be going shopping later with my mum...hopefully can find something nice.I just want a lazy Friday today I suppose...No rush, no deadlines and definately no phone calls!
I hope everyone will have a good long weekend ahead.
Happy New Year Everyone!! =D
Wheee.......
Finally back!
It’s been awhile since my last post. Been busy the whole of last week and totally swarmed during the Xmas season.
I wasn’t in a good mood prior to Xmas, thus the lack of blogging. I was so busy with work, piled up with frustrations but yet I couldn’t really find a point of release. I was really a boiling volcano ready to explode!
Anyway, I did explode and broke down….That’s another story I suppose…Perhaps on a later note when I feel comfortable talking about it.
So, I got over the whole pmsey hormonal whatever issues I had and moved on, hoping that I can really enjoy my xmas. I din wan to spoil the xmas spirit….
So a lil recap, last Friday I was on MC. Wasn’t really very sick, but I was simply too exhausted and overworked to go back office. Even my users couldn’t let me off, she called my hp, and when I told her I was on mc that day, she still blabbered on. She just couldn’t give me a break. So I tried to help her from home (that’s the wonder of a laptop, you are required to work from home at times). In the end, I directed her back to my colleague. I was on MC for goodness sake, can’t she even give me a break? Sheeessh….
So came Saturday morning….Xmas eve!!! Yay….
Had a party over at OML’s place. It was nice. But somehow I felt rather detached. Not sure from what or why, but detached is the best word I can use to describe how I felt then. It wasn’t bad or anything, but I thought maybe the true meaning of xmas was somehow…missing? We had a typical xmas dinner, played pictionary, gifts exchange etc etc. Yet it was somehow not the xmas I had hoped it would be……
I guess there were a lot of unfinished things going through in my head prior to Xmas, so I couldn’t really enjoy the festive mood? *shrugs* I think I’ll need to seek a hiatus and go for a break.
Ah huh,,,my break…it’s coming close!!!I’m officially leaving on the 6th Jan(midnight flight which equates to 7th Jan) and returning early in the morning on 13th Jan. Woohooo!!!! 1 week of break from work and all other nonsensical stuffs!!!!!! Wheeee………
I will be going to Perth again this time round. Can’t afford to go further because of limited cash and the fact that my main objective is to validate my PR status. So, with the thought of killing 2 birds with one stone, I thought going to Perth for a holiday would be nice as well. I’ve toured the north the last time, so now I’m going south. I’m excited thinking about it. Tee hee…
I’m so looking forward to this break! Yay!!!!!!
Somehow my mood’s feeling better….=)
Downhill
Been having a really bad week. It’s like things are going downhill since last week.
What did I do wrong to deserve all these?
Xmas is coming, can’t I even get a break from it all?
*sobz*
I don’t even feel like blogging it.....
New Xmas Song
Tis' the season to be bullied
Fa la la la la la la la la..........
Just Blar....
Hmm….
It’s Monday again today. And soon, the year will end and a whole new year begins.
It’s frustrating to know now that I’m getting older n older each year. I remember how when I was a lot younger, I wished time will fly and I’ll be adult soon. The irony now is that since I’ve reached my destination- adulthood, yet I’m wishing time will slow down and let me stay my age.
Not that I’m very old now, but I am getting older…I just didn’t like the ‘older’ part. Hmmm….human beings are never contented huh? Always wishing for things u can’t have, and even if u do get it at any point of your life, u probably wish for something else again. It’s a vicious cycle!
Last week really whizzed past in a flash. I had actually lots to blog about but somehow they just didn’t came out right…..I had a lot of revelations about life too. About how I’m living them right now and how I should have lived them. I’m not usually the kind of person who usually regrets about things of the past, but I must admit though that I had my fair share of regrets previously. It was only until a certain point of my life that I decided that enuff was enuff. If I had to live my life always regretting about things that happened, what kind of life would I be living? So I made the best efforts to make sure I don’t regret things anymore…..well, maybe not perfect ( I still make silly decisions sometimes) but I know I made efforts. That somehow explains why I think too much at times too. Typical librans, they usually find it hard to make decisions, but once they do, they are very firm on it.
Perhaps when I have more time, I shall blog about the revelations I had about life…..
Jab?
Darn, my colleague has finally succumb to chicken pox. He has contracted the chicken pox from his son.
I thought I had chicken pox once. But I can vaguely remember it cos it was very mild and seemed to have gone by very fast. But when my brother contracted it, I didn’t get it from him….
I’m getting old..probably not a good time to start having chicken pox…so…I'm feeling helpless!
Should I go for the chicken pox jab just in case?
Another hole in the pocket. Bummer!!!!
-.-“
Ramblings
Hmmm.....it's been awhile...
I was totally swarmed with work having return to office after 3 months of absence being onsite. It's kinda weird coming back and all....like coming to a new environment all over again.
Anyway the first day was crap, I left home early because I had somehow forgotten the usual time I leave home before the project. After 3 months of having the luxury of taxi cab rides, going back to the shoving and shuffling in trains wasn't really that enticing.
I was lucky its the end of the year because there's usually a lesser crowd. Most of the working class are either finishing up their leave or are whisked away on a well-deserved holiday after a long, tiring year. I'm still puzzled as to why I'm still here...hahahaha...but no worries...my time will come...very soon actually, less than a month now...Heeheee...
So anyway, the lrt broke down on my way to work. Bummer! What a way to start my week right? Anyway...I was a tiny weenie bit late. But it's okay, not many pple are arnd in the office anyway. Heehee...not even my boss.
So here comes Tuesday in a twinkling of an eye...
Been busy whole morning, finally gotten a break now to update. I almost forgotten I keep a blog...Bah!
Oh, something happened to me this morning to work too.
While I was on the bus to my office....there was a slight commotion.This lady sitting diagonally to my left suddenly yelp something like...
"What do u think u r doing shoving me like that.....?"
The guy beside her went...
"That's cos u r taking too much space......"
So the conversation went on...blar blar blar...couldn't catch all that they were saying...but the gist is that the guy was somehow pushing his way towards the lady on the seat.
If you ask me....I thought the guy was being abit un-gentlmanly. Perhaps the lady was taking up abit more seat, not that she's fat or anything, but she was holding on to a little more stuffs.
Anyway...Tsk tsk...the guys nowdays!!!
Happy! =)
I'm happy today...because my work is done for the day...and in abt an hour's time,it will officially be my weekend again!
Totally did not enjoy my last weekend due to some work related issues. Anyway that was sorted out and it's time to move on! =)
So yes...I'm exceptionally light hearted today. No idea y, but I should think it's because I've finished all my work for the day and I'm just waiting for time to enjoy my Friday nite.
I don't have much plans today but I'm going to Orchard, hopefully I can do some shopping? The festive just makes it sooooooo enticing to shop, maybe even buy everything off the shelves...wahahahahahaha
But....(there's always a but)I'm kinda restricted. Still need to get Xmas pressies, then plan for my trip to aussie,then my mum's bdae,then my OML's mum bdae,then there's 2 other gd fren's bdae, then it's Feb, Vdae and March, my OML's bdae...
So as u can see...I have a never ending list of things to buy and money to spend on occassions, how can I simply splurge now right?
Sobz...well..all's not lost. Hopefully some window shopping and some cheap-n-good buy will suffice for the festive-everything-also-wanna-buy mood. Kekeke...
Confession:I did however splurge on a pair of new shoes (again) for CNY. Heehee...so...control control!
Well..enuff is enuff...I shall try...(I will really try) to curb the festive-everything-also-wanna-buy mood okay? Heehee =)
Cheerios till the next input!
Emotions
My emotions are running everywhere now.
It's like I don't know what I'm feeling now.
I feel vex?frustrated?pissed?upset?or perhaps simply incoherent?
I don't know why I'm feeling this but I really at loss for words.
My colleagues at work actually think that I have nothing to do most of the time.
It's shocking to hear something like that when:
1)I'm always the earliest in the office
2)They surf the net alot,reading news especially
3)Always on the phone talking and making phone calls
4)They leave on time irregardless the fact that they are late
Just because I'm new doesn't mean I'm always free to be someone else's beck and call.
It's disgusting that people like to judge me when they themselves don't look themselves in the mirror!
It sucks to be me now!
Off the Charts
Feeling rather off the charts today....
Been having headaches since yesterday and it seems it's back again. On and off, adding to my already agonised brain.
All the way since Friday, work was jam packed throughout.....
Monday and Tuesday was out for training the whole day and had so little time for myself.
Just popped a panadol....can't think....shall blog again U suppose.*sobz*
A Little Island called Singapore
I actually have lots to bitch about today. I just can’t decide where or who to start with. (Now with my colleague sitting so close to me…it’s even harder…)
I’m quite sure tho, that this is not a case of PMS.
The truth is, I cannot tolerate why Singaporeans tend to discriminate one another. It’s like there’s this life delegate that says, you’re a scholar, welcome to the rich and powerful life and if you’re not a scholar, pls step aside and proceed to the lucky-to-find-a-job life and lead whatever-comes may-life.
Sometimes I just can’t help but wonder why people are always so biased? The reason I’m having this outburst is the fact that I’m hearing another fresh grad getting 45k per annum!!!! Yes you’ve heard me right. 45k per annum while I’m still struggling to qualify for my first credit card, even after almost 2 years of work. How unfair is life? Is this discrimination? Or is it just me? *sigh*
I’m not going to be all dainty and nice and imply that I’m not a tad jealous nor envious. The truth is, I am. Very jealous!
Don’t get me wrong…I’m happy for these people. In fact I feel that with all our years of burrowing our heads in tons of books, we, as graduates deserve at least a decent amount of salary. I’m not saying that we should be paid like huge sums, but we should at least get a respectable amount as a morale booster to congratulate us on commencing to our next phase in life.
But no…..Singapore trend is that only and only if you are a scholar or some high achievement student, then you will be rewarded, not by a little but by a lot! The rest of us simply stand at one corner and drool at their big fat paycheck while we slog for years to try and reach their standards, if it is even possible to begin with.
It’s just so unfair. I mean, here we are struggling to find a decent job, still get underpaid while these so-called high flyers are paid like a few thousands more than us simply with a snap of fingers? And the worse part is, they might not necessary earn it. My friend actually told me that he had been the one who had been doing all her assignments for and yet she is the one who got the high paying job, simply because she is a PSC scholar.
Sometimes I can’t help but feel saddened by the fact that people actually do discriminate amongst ourselves. It’s like this status call that once you are up there, u will never come down, but , if you’re down there, it doesn’t mean you can climb up there. It’s a vicious cycle. The rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer.
I just don’t understand why the system is so unfair. While many of us can’t find a job, can’t find a decent paid job, there are people out there who get paid big fat paychecks instantly. Why is there such discrimination between scholars and non-scholars. Scholars already have scholarships to pay for their expenses in schools and such. And when they graduate, they are offered big paychecks? With that, don’t they incidentally get richer too. But for the rest of us, we have to strive to get a decent pay, strive to pay off loans from school, strive to feed our parents to fulfill our part of filial piety and yet, we have to feed ourselves, perhaps go out for dates, and always hoping to have some spare cash for holidays while still trying to save for our future, marriage, family etc.
Perhaps now I know why Singaporeans always push their kids to excel. Because it is clear to me now that if you are not in the elite portion of the population, you will never get a good head start in life in this little island called Singapore. It’s a vicious cycle for success.
The question is, what happens to the rest of us?
