It's Monday...
Crap! I wrote a whole lot of stuffs but my office server went mad and I lost everything...ARRGHSS!!!!
Not gonna re-write everything..I'll just leave it in my memory now...sighzzz
End of the week...Again...
Well, another Friday is here again. As usual, you'd look forward to knocking off, then planning activities for the night, thinking that the weekend is coming and the night is still young.
But the moment you place your head on the pillow...Pooof!
It's Saturday!
You make big plans for Saturday cos this is the day you can fully maximise and enjoy to the fullest, spending every minutes and every seconds NOT thinking of work and just enjoying the weekend..
With that, the day passes by rather quickly...Pooof!!!
It's Sunday!
Still enjoying the sleeping "overtime" mood and just plain reminscing the lazy Sunday...But before you know it...Sigh...Tomorrow's another Monday...and the weekend is another week's wait again...
The days,nights,weeks and months just simply passes by with a wink. As you look forward to every weekend that you have, you undoubtfully have to go through the same patterns of looking forward to weekend time and time again....
Yes, its boring. As much as I look forward to the weekend, it makes me really sick to know that weekend normally zooms past in a flash and you seem to have to go through the same cycle all over again, week to week over and over again!Never seem to change with time. In fact, time lends a hand by reminding you on your birthday that you're once again a year older and it's time....time for you to "rethink" strategies of life?It is however subjective to different people of course!
Weekend to me now is like a lover you can never hold for too long....Hahaha...
However, I hope this weekend will be good, because I've got lots of errands to catch before the Chinese New Year is just around the corner. If I don't do it this weekend, I just might need to wait till another Chinese New Year?*LOL* Yes...it could be that bad...
Anyway, the Chinese New Year doesn't seem as exciting as before...I wonder if it's something to do with age...I'll probably try to find out from the kids...
I hope this weekend I can get my appetite back..I'm losing weight while losing my appetite...Good luck to me in finding some new year clothes too...Quite last min, I'll prob not find my sizes anymore...I'll just have to make do if all things fail I guess..
Enjoy your weekend..
Crampy =(
Back to work today, but my stomach is still not feeling too well.Still feeling the cramps coming in after lunch...Arghsss...It's been a horrible 2 days at home. Bad start for a week but other then pure agony, I just can't seem to be able to find a better word to describe how I spent my 2 unpaid "MC" at home. Luckily my mum was around, else I would really feel so alone.
Agony + Feeling miserable + Loneliness ain't a good combination at all.Thank goodness my dearest mummy was around and was even nice enough to help me go to the doctor to collect my second mc because I was just too weak to travel. After 16-17 times of visiting the loo, vomitting and unable to eat much. I seemed to have lost all energy.My knees were so weak and I think I lost some weight between these 2 days.*Sigh* Lose somemore dunno what I have left boy.My pants seemed alot loose today....=(
Still, I'm really grateful that my mum was around! =)
Meal time is still as boring for me. Plain, plain and plain porridge for me as usual. I'm really getting sick of eating you know. My family had sushi and fish & chips just the other night while I sat at the same table but eating a bowl of fish porridge..How nice eh?*sigh* And if I eat too much, my stomach will start to cramp again...ARGGHSSS!!! Y me?!?!? =(
Anyway I reckon my dinner will be plain old porridge again...Sigh..Kill me someone..plsssss....=(
Agonising is the WORD!
Yes...I'm suffering from food poisoning from god knows what. I've been going to the toilet for like 15 times for the day and still counting...
And the stupid doctor that was "recommended" by my company absolutely sucks. Y? Cos she absolutely lack professionalism.Y?Cos she hardly check me out, din even check if I was running any fever...juz touched my tummy for awhile, place her steotoscope on my tummy and that's it!!!!Gave me MC for today only!!!For such serious food poisoning and still smiled at me saying I should be better by tonite.
A LOAD OF CRAP!!!
Number 1:Why does she place the steotoscope on my tummy for?Doesn't diagnosis usually start from testing fever, den listening to your heart or something?
Number 2:Her medicine doesn't work!!!I was still going to the toilet after the medicine and had worse cramps in my stomach that I even puked!!!!
Number 3: She totally lacked professionalism cos she ASSUMED that when I told her that I suspected food poisoning and she HAPPILY accepted it and took no effort in trying to reconfirm it. She "branded" me as "chao geng" for no reason...WTH?!?!?
MY GOD!!! If we all could potentially predict and diagnose what illness we are suffering from, WHY THE HELL WE NEED DOCTORS FOR?!?!?!!?
She obviously thought that I was just trying to "fake" MC or something. Absoultely lasking in professionalism right?How can she be so biased and prejudice and condemn anyone who comes in dressed in officewear?I don't get it!WHY?WHY?WHY?
I cannot express my piss-iness right now because I feel weak unable to properly finish my meal without heading for the toilet in between and not to mention after.I even feel tired typing this out. It's basically the "anger" and "piss-iness" that's keeping me "stong" right now...
Damn...I dun think I can go to work tomorrow but I have no MC...How?
*sighz*
I need to rest now....
Good Night everyone...
Brain Dead -.-
Yup...my brain is officially dead now.Why? Cos after almost 3 weeks of intensive training for SAP, I'm starting to realise I'm not human. Y?Cos no human on earth can absorb 3 different SAP modules within a span of 3 weeks, which is not entirely dedicated to lectures but rather a overall, some demo and that's pretty much it.
The usual timeline to learn one SAP module is 5 weeks full-time including Saturdays. But for it, it has to end in 3 weeks, for 3 different modules. So do you think I am human?I'm starting to doubt....but I am really really overwhelmed by the amount of information that is being pushed to me. I know I have had some exposure to SAP, but it isn't like those who had like a few years of actual working experience. I only learnt mine through tutorials in Uni!!!!!
*Sigh* I feel really really stressed out right now..What if I cannot perform upon the expectations given to me?Will I be sacked?I can almost imagine the scenario now...Feeling so worn out and worried about my rice bowl...I should have just gone into teaching huh?*sigh...again*
I think I need some confidence booster drink or even some retail therapy perhaps?Yar..I wish...if I hadn't been so broke..Working life sucks man, you are suppose to be earning a monthly income yet you seem to get poorer and poorer as each day passes..I need to find a sugar daddy perhaps???Hahaha...anyone interested?Hahaha...I'm so going to be killed with this statement...but I feel really sianz right now...I NEED THERAPHY!!!!!!! =P
First Trial!
I'm virtually brain dead at the moment after a looooooong tiring day so I'm keeping this short. =)
I had my first try at performing a support for SAP system today. It wasn't too difficult a task but it was my first trial and I could do it, of course with the kind help of my fellow newbie collegue. He was nice to slowly teach me how and where to start from...
But I still felt happy that I could follow and eventually completed my first support task. *cheers n appluase* please...=)
Although tired, I feel kinda contented today. Training was tough having to absorb 3 different modules within a span of 3 weeks, but I guess no pain no gain huh? =P
Now I'm officially supporting the CS and SD module in SAP. More tough days to come I guess...wish me luck now!!! =)
Frustrations!!!!
Do you ever feel like the forces of nature are so against you? Honestly I haven't been having a great week recently due to a few personal issues. I woke up Sunday morning crying my eyes out not knowing what on earth I am crying about. Perhaps it's just another mood swing or perhaps it's PMS? But thinking back, it was definately not fun. I guess tear duct had to "relieve" itself because I had some issues in my relationship and some work related stress. Being a typical thinker myself, I found it hard to control my emotions sometimes and I often have the tendency to think too much. I know I know...it's me...No one's perfect huh?
Going back to why I felt the way I did on Sunday morning...
1)Fri night was a good nite..supposedly cos' I was to meet one of my best pals for his pre-bdae celebration. But I just had to suffer from my usual attacks of headache. However I still had a good time with my good pal.Just hope he did enjoy himself too! =)
2)Anyway, my dearest bf had to make it worse by "picking" a fight together...Friday was clearly not a good day...AT ALL!
3)Saturday morning din sleep well and woke up real early due to the aftermath of the whole quarrel thingy..It wasn't exactly resolved and I usually dun sleep well at all when things like that happen...Yes...I think too much!
4)Although things were being discussed a little...I still din exactly felt that everything was gone...I still felt a "prick" somehow..Just not exactly sure what it is..So it was "hangover" to Sunday.
5)Sunday was suppose to be a nice relaxing day...Wasn't too drama but I still din feel happy about how things were going...I saw a top that I like somewhere in TM..but din went in to check it out cos I was still a lil upset.Abit regretting now..but..sigh..it's me!
Perhaps to many people out there, all these issues seemed peanuts compared to what's happening to the world right now with the tsunamis etc etc. I dun mean to complain, it's just that I'm such a emotional bag that I just can't help it sometimes. Forgive me if you that I'm being childish and ignorant..Nobody's perfect.
And anyway to add things up...
1)I forgot my handphone this morning
2)Rushed back to get it and missed the train this morning
3)Followed by having to wait a longer time for the buses
4) But when they arrive, typical kiasu commuters just shoved and pushed until I couldn't get onto the bus when it was full....
Sigh...Morale of the story today...Let me complain!!!!!
Judgement Day?
Today I had some revelations while I was on a train. Amusingly, it was triggered by this guy, in his late thirties I would say, who was staring at me in a way that I felt as if I was being "judged". And the reason being...I thought it was because I got myself a seat and he didn't...Hahaha..yes yes..you may laff and probably even say I'm being paranoid, but it's true..He's most probably thinking..."That's should have been my seat and not hers..Damn..why am I not as
kiasu as her?I should be faster next time..."
Well at least that's what I thought he was probably thinking looking at me like that even thou he knew I caught him looking at me. Weird huh? Well, because of that it keep me thinking...
I did not enjoying his "
judging look" on me.What was it like to be judged in this sense? Was it fair that he thought I dun deserve the seat as much as he did? Or was I being a typical kiasu singaporean in his eyes? Perhaps I was just another commuter who got in his way of a comfortable ride on a working Friday.
Ironically, when I first came back to Singapore, I was being critical about this "typical singaporeans" aura that was virtually all around. I felt that Singaporeans were being very uncaring, very kiasu, whether was it giving up a seat to someone who needs more than yourself or was it giving way to the commuters that are coming out of the train. I was kinda disgusted in a way because I saw the "ugly" side of this when I saw everyday working class people ignoring the needs of a pitiful old lady, who obviously needed the seat more that anyone who was sitting down just to catch the day's eye shut.Standing at a third person's perspective, I was doing the exact same thing that the guy on the train did to me. I was judging these people....
Ironically after becoming one of these everyday working class people, I realised the so called "importance" of a day's wide shut. After having to wake up six plus in the morning and going back home after a long and tiring day, a next best alternative to seeking solace of a "silent" moment was to get a gd eye shut, no matter how short it will be....
Well...I should realised that now, I too, belong to the same category of uncaring, kiasu singaporeans that we all like to brand one another...
Nobody likes to be judged, or at least I don't...but I guess like all other human beings...we all tend to do the opposite the moment we are at a third person's perspective..Perhaps we should all learn to be more accomodating and understanding to each fellow mankind? Why can't we all be nice to each other and prevail the idea that LOVE CONQUERS ALL? I guess this question can never be answered because this will never happen? Hahaha...Does this mean we all have to go through "
Judgement Day"? Perhaps...Perhaps...
ps:I'm having a headache as I'm writing me..forgive me if you think this is all crap...Haa..I need my rest..=P
Office Environment
Now what is it with office buildings and the corporate world?My office seems to be getting colder and colder each day...Esp when lately the sun hasn't been very active and is always hiding behind the clouds. For the one week and four days that I've been here, there isn't a day where I dun need my jacket and not need some hot water every now and then...and not to mention thr in and out of the ladies..shesshh..
Not only is the air-conditioning cold here, the environment here is pretty much the same as well. People don't walk around to talk or make jokes anymore.Definately not like my previous company where we go for a short tea break once in awhile as well. The irony here is that even with the open office concept here..the pple still don't communicate much..Well..perhaps they do..through emails and office messengers..but there's no human contact anymore.
Sighz..I do find it hard sometimes to live through the day without utterly a word, constantly fearing that my voice might break the windows or something in the office...Haaa....It is that quiet around here.
It's really not like me to not say a word for so long, but for my future career...I guess it's a sacrfice I must make right now and compromise to my surroundings. The good part of this...You can come in and out under the radar,without much notice?
Well, we'll see how things go in awhile...Perhaps I should try and introduce some changes around here?Hahahahaha...=p
I'll put that in my "never-resoluted" resolution list for the new year I suppose...Kekekeke =P
Back to school again?
Just yesterday I was talking to a fren saying how much I miss sch life blar blar...So today, I have my second dose of training @ work. It kinda feels like school again somehow, only there's no exams or anything. But my mentor does ask questions and gives us some exercise to do. She's a nice "tutor" so far...much beta den my previous tutor who believes more in "on-job training" rather den explaining and hoping we can understand the whole MM module.
I'd say he wasn't really enthu about the whole "training" thing...or that...It's simply a guy thing?=p In general, I still think women are far more patient and understanding and they can relate to your needs and stuffs..Guys are just simply hopeless to areas like that...Haha...at least that's wat I think..
I'm currently really drained out right now that I feel my brain juice almost squeezed out...I do hope I still have some left so that I can actually "find" my way home later..Hahaha..Yar..signs of crappiness seems to be creeping up...which means I should stop...at least for now...before I "transform" and seriously start talking nonsense..Haha..
Another Monday
Last Saturday was my JC gathering. Although the number of attendees was not huge, but it was still nice to see everyone again. It did bring back alot of memories thou..All the fun we had in school and all the silly stunts that we pulled on each other...Hahaha..Yar..I feel like a "kid" again.
The busy schedule of work life has made me appreciate being a student altogether. Perhaps not many pple would agree with me...but i genuinely miss school life. I miss the times where we could skip lectures and go for cheap movies on Tuesdays and go for long extended lunch...Hahaha..those were definately the days....
But right now...sad to say..lunch is strictly limited to an hour! No more, and hopefully no less. =P
However, my point is...we should not let our lives be dominated by our work...it should be the other way round?Ha...I'll try and be the guinea pig here and see how effective this can work out to be...
Wish me luck! =)
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