K for Komplexity...

It's over...

When money gets in between a relationship,you know there's nothing more to discuss....

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 3:42 PM | 2 comment(s)

Tantrums

My parents can be quite weird at times....

Never could quite understand them.

I'm turning 25 this year and yet I'm constantly treated like a child. When I'm out with frens till after 10.30pm, my parents would ring me...not once but twice and be all sarcastic abt whether I don't have to work the next day. I seriously cannot understand this rationale!

I have been studying in Australia for 3 and a half years. I have proven to be able to take good care of myself....and yet...they have to call up and check on me?*sigh*

I don't see my peers' parents calling them up at all....Is it me? Or is my parents going a tad too much?

I mean, I do have a close bond with my family and all, but once in a while, I want to be treated like an adult. I mean for goodness sake...some pple my age are already married and planning a family. And here I'm treated like a young girl whose curfew ends at 10.30pm?*sigh*

Last weekend was my OML's birthday so I spent most of my weekend out. So this morning, my mum was throwing obvious tantrums at me.

Today, she totally ignored me. She sat reading the newspapers at the hall the whole time while I was having my brekky.Normally, she would have breakfast together with me at the table, and we would just talk about stuffs...But today,when I finished would she return to the kitchen and do her usual stuffs.When I left my room, she went into the room, when I left the kitchen back to my room, she would go to the hall...

I would greet her goodbye whenever I'm leaving and she would come and close the door when I leave. Today, once again, she totally ignored me.

I give up! I seriously can't be bothered as well...*sigh*

Sometimes I do wonder who is the child in this relationship?

Why can't I have a little more freedom at home? I'm coming 25 this year for goodness sake! Why can't I go out whenever I want to and wherever I want? All along I've always been very accomodating with them. From Mondays to Thursdays I'm always home for dinner unless I really need to go places. And yet they complain that I'm always out? It's so difficult to meet up with frens with such a timetable and yet I'm willing to bear.I never entertain last minute outings unless really necessary because I respect the fact that my mum has prepared dinner for me and I would always go home for dinner to show my appreciation.Even on weekends, I always make sure I have lunch at home before I go out. What else do they want? Why can't even I have my own programs? They totally take me for granted...and I hate that! Sometimes I find this a lil too much to bear. Are they really driving me to get married soon just so that I can have a lil more freedom? This makes me miss my aussie life so much! When I find a job there...I'm so going!

*humph*

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*Gasp*

OMG!

I just received news that there is now a real-life sized portrait banner of myself sitting in the office. This banner is apparently specially used for seminars and conferences to promote our company brand.

I was initially told that those pictures would be for the website…how on earth did it become a life size banner? I’m so getting my marketing exec!

I haven seen it yet so I don’t know how ghastly it looks really…I will probably only be able to catch a glimpse of it in April perhaps? If I ever get back office I guess…

When I first agreed to lend my face to the company, it was due to my marketing exec’s persistent pleas. And since I was told the shots were for our new company website, I thot, “What the heck. Who would bother about my face being on the website. Moreover the explanation was because they had wanted to picture staffs rather than some strangers for that closeness touch. Anyway, deep down inside me, there is this strong vibe that says it is most probably due to budget constraints.( I wasn’t paid anything at all!) I even took out my suite for the shots, which was never worn, except for this occasion. It was a silly opening reason, but anyway, I had to keep my promise.

But a portrait size??? OMG!!! I thot it would only be like a small banner on a website or something….

Sigh....I have no idea how to hide my face now back in office…

Hmmm....on a lighter side, I should ask for some royalty fees perhaps?

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Who Am I?

I’ve been going through some of my archives today and I realized something….

I’m a really whiney and boring person who complains a lot abit her life, her work and her colleagues.(hur hur hur)

For those who know me personally….what do u think of when u read my entries? Are u able to relate to the real me?

And what about those who don’t know me personally but read my blog entries…can u tell what kind of person I really am?

It’s funny but I somehow feel that I tend to wrongly represent myself at times…..but I can’t help but wonder if beneath the all cheery and happy go lucky me…is just a lonely girl in search of herself in this merciless world?

I think too much don’t I?

Muahahaha…..

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 12:37 PM | 2 comment(s)

Inconsideration

To digress...

Wow...it's almost been 2 weeks since my last entry...

Can't help it..been crazy like hell...simply had no time to write my blog. And by the time I get home...I don't even wanna touch the computer again, let alone to blog.

Getting back on track....

My PM, aka Mr Ego, is totally and absolutely inconsiderate. He lives blardy near the project site and he is usually the last person to waltz in the office.Today, he has the key to our project room and he couldn't even have the basic courtesy to come in on time. He had to be 20 mins late. Unbelievable!

I've always been the earliest one to reach the project site even though I live the furthest! And every blardy time I have to wait for those selfish buggers who have the key(but are still late) to arrive before I can start work. Not that I'm a workaholic or anything but I feel that coming in early helps me to settle things down, clear my emails and maybe read the papers. I dread the fact that I have to wait for these inconsiderate pple who apparantly holds the keys and yet able to waltz in late like nothing ever happened. Just who does he think he is? I mean, he's the PM isn't it? Where's the whole responsiblilty thingy?

I don't get it. I am soooo gonna hold the next key. Can't take waiting for those selfish buggers who think they are so high and mighty and that we are "servants" who are suppose to wait for their arrival. Shite!

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Communication

Communication is always important. But when do we know if there is effective communication?

At home, my family sometimes don’t understand me.

At work, my colleagues like to speak in a very abrupt manner. As if I’m supposed to immediately infer and apparently understand what they are trying to say without the need to elaborate.

With my OML, sometimes I can’t help but feeling I’m speaking to a child.

Is it me? Should I go for some communication lessons or something?

*Sigh*

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 11:00 AM | 1 comment(s)

In the blues....

Feeling down lately....

Haven't been sleeping well and having various attacks of headaches.

Just last nite I woke up with a throbbing headache that soaked me in cold sweat.For 2 consecutive nites it happened...so I got abit worried...

Went to the doctor today and he did clear me of any unknown disease.

His exact words were "Less than 1% of the people who go through the routine check of which I have just given u, have the risk of having a tumour in their head. But to be very careful, take note of yourself and the headaches. If they persist, come back to me. Because u'll never know if u will fall into that 1% of those who does..."

I wasn't sure exactly if he was trying to sound optimistic about my concerns or that he was just trying to be truthful about my condition.

First he was assuring me that I prob don't have a tumour in my head than he threw me off the roof saying I could be the 1% who actually did the check but was not accurately diagnosed.

Probably seeing how worried I was, he wanted to redeem himself and gave me 2 days MC to rest.His instructions were clear....He did say my headaches could be stress induced, which I potenentially agree.

But I'm still deciding if I should take tommorrow off too or just go back and face the pile of work that I can almost imagine, waiting for me....

For some weird reasons, I seemed to have lost my zest in work lately. Somehow I just don't feel motivated anymore. It's like nobody treats me like an individual anymore. They're still biased with the face that I'm new and expect me to do everything and anything they assign. Don't I ever have a choice? Is that life?

In a contrary to what I have written before about life's choices, I find myself ironically falling into the category where I can't make my own life choices anymore, purely because I need to survive the urban jungle, struggling in the name of life?

I'm toking crap....

Sigh.....

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"Incredible" Tales.....

Life can be really quite amusing sometimes…

And to boot it all, the kind of pple that u meet is even more amusing….

Remember in my past blog there was this colleague of mine of India origin that I was complaining about?

New revelations today. Not only is he bossy, selfish and sexist…he is also extremely petty too!!!!!! Good God!!! How is it possible that such a person exist?

I totally cannot comprehend such mentality of his. So totally out of the world. He is so damn lucky that my direct boss and big boss are nice enough to “tolerate” his attitude most of the time. If he’s going to be working for a local company, I’m sure he won’t last beyond the probation period.

He’s currently the PM for my project because of political reasons. Honestly he’s really a bad PM. He does nothing but boss pple arnd and order pple to do this and do that…..Arrghsss….and he so totally enjoy bossing me arnd!!!!!

Hmm..to make things clearer…let’s give him a nick. Let’s call him Mr Ego. And another colleague of mine…let’s call her Miss Stubborn.

So Mr Ego and Miss Stubborn are mostly at loggerheads. Mainly because there r things they dun c eye to eye because of stubbornness and the fact that Mr Ego is extremely long winded and bossy. He doesn’t respect women, he feels women should never be of the same stature with men. How MCP!!!!

Mr Ego just made something so small ridiculously big. This is because it involved something about Miss Stubborn being “rude” to our clients here.

Anyway the whole thing was no biggy, I bet he blew it out of proportion because he simply cannot hide his jealousy anymore, he wanted to get back at Miss Stubborn so badly that he just create a nuisance out of nothing. How pretentious!

Can u imagine he complains to my boss even when Miss Stubborn’s email addy appears in front of his when my boss emails us? Incredible? Believe me it’s true. I can never understand why my boss puts up with alllllll his shit! He’s just too extreme!!! Honestly, he’s just fat and short to me. I don’t even think he’s smart or anything. Can’t comprehend!

Till next "incredible" event...

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