In the blues....
Feeling down lately....Haven't been sleeping well and having various attacks of headaches.
Just last nite I woke up with a throbbing headache that soaked me in cold sweat.For 2 consecutive nites it happened...so I got abit worried...
Went to the doctor today and he did clear me of any unknown disease.
His exact words were "Less than 1% of the people who go through the routine check of which I have just given u, have the risk of having a tumour in their head. But to be very careful, take note of yourself and the headaches. If they persist, come back to me. Because u'll never know if u will fall into that 1% of those who does..."
I wasn't sure exactly if he was trying to sound optimistic about my concerns or that he was just trying to be truthful about my condition.
First he was assuring me that I prob don't have a tumour in my head than he threw me off the roof saying I could be the 1% who actually did the check but was not accurately diagnosed.
Probably seeing how worried I was, he wanted to redeem himself and gave me 2 days MC to rest.His instructions were clear....He did say my headaches could be stress induced, which I potenentially agree.
But I'm still deciding if I should take tommorrow off too or just go back and face the pile of work that I can almost imagine, waiting for me....
For some weird reasons, I seemed to have lost my zest in work lately. Somehow I just don't feel motivated anymore. It's like nobody treats me like an individual anymore. They're still biased with the face that I'm new and expect me to do everything and anything they assign. Don't I ever have a choice? Is that life?
In a contrary to what I have written before about life's choices, I find myself ironically falling into the category where I can't make my own life choices anymore, purely because I need to survive the urban jungle, struggling in the name of life?
I'm toking crap....
Sigh.....
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3:36 PM
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