Lake House
I was somehow subtley "accused" of not blogging much lately....
Heh...I was actually. Haven't had the time nor the strengths to express the lack of "colour" in life. Seriously, I'm contempating to end this blog purely because I'm shock at the things I blog about after reading some of my past entries....
My life seems so monotonous and colorless...Sigh...
Anyway, that's not the point of my blog today....
As titled, I went to catch "Lake House" yesterday by Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock.
Coincidentally, Jamie Yeo and Glenn Ong were 2 rows in front of us in the same cinema.
They seemed a nice couple, a few fans actually went up and asked Glenn for his autograph and Glenn promptly shook hands with them and gave them his autograph without any airs. You know how some artists are so arrogant that they don't even smile or even try to be friendly?A guy sitting behind somehow started chatting with Glenn and not one time did Glenn tried to shrug him off. When the show started, he even introduced his wife, Jamie to him and shoke his eyes as a gesture of "Nice to meet u". Even after the show, Glenn shook his hands again and bid him goodbye.
Although I don't see a lot of artists around, I thought Glenn was being really nice and he doesn't put on airs at all. Jamie on the other hand was more of a stranger. Maybe cos she's a lady, not very nice to go around shaking hands with guy fans and stuffs?
Anyway, back to Lakehouse.
The show was great.It was a nice mixture of romance and humour. What I like about the story is the way it depicted love as something so magical that it can transcend through time.
Love doesn't have to be about how one looks. Love doesn't have to be physicaly there. And true love stands the wait of time.....
Love is about knowing ,caring and being there for each other, not physically but emotionally.
Love knows no boundaries....
I would love to share the entire story line with u....but I'd rather not. Catch the show yourself and let me know if u share my sentiments. Some things are better experienced yourself than to hear from others...=p
Back!
Finally! Finally I have time to blog about my happenings!
The moment I stepped into office on Monday. My table’s just filled with work! Goodness me!!! So suffocating!!!
Anyway, huge thanks to those who left messages on my previous post. I am feeling a lot better after taking this well deserved break. Thanks for the concern! =D
Small update on my trip to BKK:
It was a good trip in all. It was nice to be able to forget all about work and concentrate on enjoying myself. Was a pity we wasted first 2 days visiting the “wrong” shopping malls and ended up spending more than we should.
In the end, we didn’t have much time nor money left for the rest. So, we had to make do. Perhaps we will be smarter on our next trip….
I have been hearing stories about the air pollution there, but when I’m there, I’m really surprised at how bad it really is. BKK is the fact that the place is so polluted that I feel with the mere 4 days there, I could possibly have shorten my life by a few years….heh!
There were also beggars along the roads and along the bridges. Some were cripples and some were senior citizens. It was a saddening sight because many of them were children. Some were even babies brought along by whom I would assume to be their mums. Sad…..
I would look forward to return. This time better equipped with more money, better time management and more days, perhaps visiting the outskirts this time.
Well…just a short update. Till next time.
Break Point
I finally broke down today on my way home today. Twice in fact. Once when I left the office, on my way to Orchard and another on the train back home.
I was frustrated with work today and I felt really helpless.
The project was finally over but the issues that came soon after seemed never ending. I had thought I could cope, but I guess I was wrong. I was frustrated because those were things that were not handled by me. But at the end of the day, I had to be judged based on that. Was that even fair?
After a tiresome week, I guess I finally gave in to the sense of helplessness.
Sometimes I wonder if my helplessness was due to my lack of knowledge of the system or was it my lack of assertiveness when I handle my own team-mates and my users.
I guess I was upset at the fact that there was so many things I had to do within such a short time frame and there was just too many things to be handled all at once. I was really disappointed at myself actually. There were issues that weren’t too difficult to solve, but because I wasn’t the one handling it, it was tougher.
My current team-mates are a disappointing bunch. They aren’t as cooperative as the batch before and everyone’s trying to pin point the responsibility to someone else when there’s a problem or when there’s work to be done.
Things went a lil worse when I got news that my direct mentor will be leaving in a month’s time. Which means I will be the only one left for my module. With limited amount of experience, am I expected to fill her role?
With such demanding customers/end-users, I’m really skeptical about me being able to fill the post.
It was kinda farnie in a way to drop tears today because I thought I was stronger than that. I mean, I’ve really endured through the whole hell project. But sitting at the noisy MOS burger place, I couldn’t help but feel that loneliness and helplessness I felt the entire day. It reminded me of a scene in Titanic where Kate Winslet was with her mum and fiance at the cruise ship’s restaurant, where she felt so out of place and so strangled by the atmosphere that she couldn’t breathe.
I felt like that at dinner time today. Everyone was talking, the noise was somehow amplified and having the seats so close to each other didn’t help.
OML tried to cheer me up today. But somehow I felt even more detached. I felt he couldn’t understand me and he didn’t know how to make my day better. I felt worse when I couldn’t find solace in him. Could it be that I had expected too much or perhaps he wasn’t trying hard enough? I don’t know what I’m feeling right now…except I’m at my lowest point.
I don’t know what to feel anymore. I’m numb.
