Brrr....
Another gloomy and rainy day. Real cold in the office today…the sun hasn’t been shining much lately..always having dark clouds hovering around almost the entire day….
Been a rather monotonous day for me today…still doing the training materials mind you…sheesh…really boring and slow because I really dunno what is suitable…I mean..really..i’m still not pro enuff and I’m already expected to “act” pro..sigh..I am hoping so much that this is a good thing…Sigh…
Well, I’m really really brain fried today…thanks god it’s already Thursday and tomorrow’s Friday already…I’m so looking forward to the weekend man..desperately need a break…
Hope u guys can chill out too…
Tazzzz...........
Noobs!
My brain is almost fried now…I can’t believe that I’m being asked to come out with training exercises for the end users(for the project in Phil). Seriously, I am still as blind as them…maybe not like them..but it is almost like a blind leading the blind situation you know.
Maybe it’s my mood acting up or over-reacting, but I thot these are the things that should be down by the trainer themselves who would have known everything by the back of their hands? They should know what are the important areas to look at, to remember and maybe to practice one. But me???HUH??seriously…I’m still on probabtion you know. Officially I can still tender my resignation now and leave in a week’s notice. I’ll be long gone by the time the training starts…Sheesshhh..
Okay..i’m not contemplating to do that, just that I feel rather exploited because this should be my scope of work…at least for now since I’m such a noobie myself….Until I am a total pro…I probably wouldn’t be able to escape presentations, trainings etc etc. But now??I juz think it’s too early…I’m struggling right now cos I’m still not absolutely sure like at the back of my hands of certain stuffs and so I’m taking a lot more time than what a proper consultant would.
Somehow I feel I’m being asked to do this cos the trainer will be on leave and she prob can’t finish this in time…so as usual..I’m the scapegoat here while she can enjoy her leave…
Sigh…
Honestly, I’m beginning to feel that noobies are never treated fairly in any organization. I mean, let’s face it…we are fresg grads, we have no “real world” experience and it’s so easy to psycho us into believing that “these” are the things that we ought to do. Y? Simply because we are inexperienced!
Perhaps this is the way the world goes because as we gain more experience, the more money we get but the lesser work we do…If you ask me now, she’s definitely paid at least 3 times more than me but I’m doing most of the work because the slides are already done….If I’m being paid like that, I don’t mind…but with the peanuts pay….i feel exploited and “choked”! So many to do and so little time…
SHIT! As I’m writing this…another sequest is logged…and it’s directed to me again…I do wonder if the bosses know I’m doing her work man…sigh…that’s what noobies do huh? We clear all the tedious work while the experienced ones claim the credit…How convenient!
*Sigh….*
Rainy Day....
It’s been raining quiet a lot lately. The weather once again is changing….This means I need more new clothes?Hahahah…I’m kinda running out of tops lately…because I have since realized that I do not need so many shirts after all. Only on special occasions I guess. As long as we are not dressed too casually in the office, I think it’s fine. And anyway. Friday seems to be jeans day already…Hee…
I’m actually starting to be sick of my own blog…yes you’ve heard me right…I am getting SICK of MY OWN blog…hahahaha
Seems that my blog is getting more and more lifeless…I’m suspecting that it has something to do with my current lifestyle…
I’m getting lesser time for thots, and when I’m back home…I hardly even want to turn on my com. I guess I’m sick of staring at the com the entire day in the office that I don’t even want to go home and stare at it again…
I mean…the com is already the first thing I see for the day…do I still want it to be the last thing I see before I go to bed? The com isn’t even alive and it’s almost my “can’t do without soul-less mate”?
Argghss…I shudder at that thot…I think we are too dependent on this soul-less radiating chippy thing that we can’t seem to live without as technology advances…
Sigh…what irony!!!!
As we battle against this…I do wonder if computers, robots etc etc will eventually take over the world like the movie “The Terminator”. Clique…But I guess it’s still worth the thot since we are getting more and more dependent on this “soul-less” mate…One day we will just all stay home and let the machines work on our behalf and eventually become retards who cannot function without the help of the machines? Then that will be doom’s day for the human race…
Lalala....
It’s another Monday. But I’m glad it’s officially over. I’m just waiting for more pple to leave before I do. The 2 bosses are not around today so there’s pretty much “boh jeng hu” today(which simply means "no governement" aka no one to check up on you... But then again, the office is still undeniably quiet as it always is.
I’ve done quite a lot today. Finally tried my hands on some SAP config and it feels good to see that it’s not that difficult….well…maybe not as yet.
Anyway time flies when you’re busy…which is good…I wanna go home but seems that a lot others r still wayang-ing…I wonder y…hmmmmm…
Anyway in 2 weeks time I’ll be heading to the Jurong office for the kick start of the Philippines roll out, our current office here is a little cramp,so..no choice…god help me!!!so far away..will die man..think I’ve got to wake up much earlier already…Sigh..
Okee, I think I’ll end here for now..think I wanna slow start packing up and go already…heee…
Fly Away...
It’s confirmed!
I am going to Philippines for the SAP rollout and I am going to be there for the entire 3 months. Pretty exciting in a way but I can’t help but feeling abit skeptical due to the various terrorist threats that has been going on. Sigh…I hope we’ll all do fine for this trip.
Well, looking on the brighter side, we are most probably coming back once a week, flying in Friday and flying out Sunday…
I actually think this whole project will be very very tiring…simply because the up and down of planes is tiring enuff but to fly in and out like tat for the entire 3 months makes it even worse…I so hope I’ll be able to survive this else my career will be pretty much down the drain?
*Hmm…ponder ponder*
Anyway I’ll be leaving on the 24th of April officially…wish me luck people. I hope this is a good chance for me to pick up new things and moving a step closer to my consultant dream…*Big Grin*
I’m actually also contemplating if I should take a break after it all…maybe avoid the planes and go for some cruise or bintan or whatever…maybe even sentosa..HA! Just for the sake of taking a break. We’ll see how my pocket holds up then before I decide…
Haha…I know I know..even before the project I’m already planning for the aftermath. Well..it’s called planning ahead…It’s a virtue ok…muahahaha….it’s always nice to plan ahead so that things will be able to flow smoothly after? =)
Wish me luck....
Weekend is here again...
It’s been a busy week.
Today is the final day of my ABAP programming and boy am I glad it’s over. I have actually been quite impressed with my self lately, getting a little big headed. That’s because usually my programming skills are not exceptionally good but I was able to follow the entire training and able to do the assignments on my own. Compared to my fellow peers attending the training, I was able to understand much faster and able to fulfill the assignment requirements without much problem. I was able to troubleshoot my errors and find a solution and eventually get the desired results. =)
I can’t deny I’m feeling a little smug lately…*BigGrin*
Anyway..weekend is here…YAY!!!
Feeling rather drained after almost using up alllll my brain juices..
Enjoy the weekend!!!!
D DAY!!!!!
Y are some Singaporeans so rude???!!!!???
Seriously….
This morn as I was on my way to work, going down the MRT escalator when this obnoxious sickening idiotic nincompoop sneezed a whole lot of disgusting mucous ONTO MY SHOUDLER AND DOWN MY LEFT HAND!!!
Can you believe this man!!!!!!OMG!!!! I was absolutely horrified I tell yah…How disgusting was this? I mean…OMG…it’s just DISGUSTING!!!!
And the worse thing is, I did not know exactly who it was because:
1) it happened while I was walking down the moving escalator
2) 2) I couldn’t stop to see who was it cos of the crowd
Else I would have given that inconsiderate man a piece of my mind I tell yah! I am sooooo recovering from this. Totally disgusted my entire day…literally…
Anyway the moment I hit my office, I went straight to the toilet and tried to clean up whatever I could/couldn’t that was left after I tried to clean up with my tissue paper while standing in the usual morning crowd on the train. YUCKS!!!!
It still sends disgusting notions when I think of it! YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS!!!!!!
Believe me, I was so cursing the man the ENTIRE train ride. At that split moment, I was harbouring y I didn’t wear long sleeves to work today. Sheesh..
He’s so lucky that I was soooo busy with training/work today. It’s funny how when there’s no work there’s no work, but when one comes..all comes along as well. I could only catch some breather until now…sheessshh…I still shudder at the thot while writing this down. Disgusting with a capital D!
This would be a great time to use a disgusted puking emoticon if there’s one!
=)
Today’s a good day. I’m scheduled to go through training this entire to learn ABAP programming. I was soooo sure that I would not get myself any programming related job, but boy am I wrong…
But looking on the bright side of things, ABAP isn’t such a different programming language to learn. I guess through the torturous experience I had with Java, this is a much much beta experience…
=)
A Quiet Day….
Hmm…after awhile of observation, it seems that the pple in my ofc seems to enjoy “disappearing” on Thursday. I do wonder…what is the occasion? Is it in preparation of the weekend? Hmmm….
Anyway I’ve almost covered all of my admin duties for now I guess. I finally finished the slides that I was asked to format and reformat again. It really is a boring job you know, but I have since learnt many capabilities of Microsoft Powerpoint…Hahaha..perhaps in another sense, it is a good thing too? =)
I’m feeling rather sleepy now…dun even haf the mood to blog..think I’m signing off now..
Enjoy the coming weekend!
Feeling small....
I’m feeling real small today, literally and non literally.
I’d have to admit that I’m small in size, petite frame…whatever. But really, why does size play such a big factor in the society? I just dun get it you know…Does it mean with my petite frame I will never ever succeed in life? *sigh* I’m really starting to feel that size does play a factor. Because people dun usually pay attention to u at all nor do they really listen to what you have got to say…seriously..I felt incredibly small and ignored today…why? Simply because I’m SMALL!
People just don’t take your presence into account at all you know. And some people think that even as an intern, they are smarter and more capable than you and trying to put you down all the time u know. And they wan to claim credit for something that two of us did together..OMG! Where is the justice man. I’m suppose to be older den her…she shld at least respect me a little? Sheesh…how sad you know…
Maybe she’s just trying to vie for attention or maybe cos her dad’s the director or our Indo operation, everyone treats her really well and the bosses actually know of her existence. How convenient right? For a “nameless” person like me…people will conveniently forget about me…as usual..
I’m rather quite upset in a sense, not because I feel jealous or anything but that people are so practical, so realistic….I hate that!
Morale of the story, I don’t think I’ll get anywhere in my career with my outlook…
BUMMER!
Finding Solace....
It’s actually been awhile since I felt like writing anything….I guess it’s been a roller coaster ride for me with a lot of things that’s been flooding my life right now.
For some reasons, my mood hasn’t been rather optimistic lately.
Honestly, it could be my hormones making fun of me or it’s simply due to a “series of unfortunate events” in my life now. (ps:pun not intended here, I haven’t seen the show either =p so…=p )
Anyways, I’m just gonna spill the beans today and perhaps find solace here…
The truth is, I have doubts in my life right now. I’m turning 24 this year but I haven’t exactly have a career yet...though I hope it will bring me somewhere in future…I can’t help but feeling uncertain about my future.
I know that nobody ever can predict their future nor dictate what is to happen, but I believe somehow or rather, WE can always make a difference somehow. The truth is, I am a person who is insecure all the time. This is perhaps one of my greatest flaw….
But honestly, how many person out there, can so incredibly be so positive and optimistic ALLLLL the time and heeds all the greatest advice in the world and just be happy and contented.
I believe that deep down inside each and every one of us knows all the “model answers” as to how we should all live our lives. But do we always follow these “model answers”?
As much as I hate to break the truth…reality is that we don’t! That is exactly why we are humans. We make mistakes, we regret and we wallow in self pity and self deception. No matter how perfect we imagined life to be, it just can’t be that perfect I suppose.
Believe me when I say all these…. I am not immersing myself in self pity nor am I being sarcastic to life. I’m really just being realistic, looking at the world the way it is as a third person…Almost like a soul-leaving experience…it is rather enlightening to an extend.
Now going back to uncertainties in life, there’s always the relationship question, “Have u found THE ONE yet?” As much as I would like to answer this question, I found that I actually have no answer to this question….First of all, how do you define THE ONE? Is it something you can feel, touch, smell or is it something more? I believe we have all at a stage of our lives, tried to search high and low for THE ONE, but seriously, how often have we come to a conclusion that THE ONE is just a myth and doesn’t exist? You may be so in love on cloud nine for awhile…but when things get rough, you bid farewell. Then do you still look back and say..”Hey, I think he/she was THE ONE…but….” But it is all too late because it may be too late to turn back now….
But on the contrary, if you are with someone but you are unsure, do you think the grass is greener on the other side? Do you long to be free again and pursue the endless search for THE ONE again? Unfortunately I do not have the answer to this either….
In conclusion, I think life is really about taking risks, just the way you bet on BIG SMALL on the gamble table. You can never predict for sure how your life would turn out…in fact the way I see it…you have only four choices to it, you either bet, dun bet, bet big or bet small.
Bottom line…Life is a gamble…What do you think?
Sunshine After the Rain....
It’s been raining for almost the whole day today as well….
Another drowsy day…
Somehow, I’m feeling slightly beta today…maybe still not in my best mood…but beta.
I had a small chat with a fellow colleague today. She’s two years older then me but she seems to have gone through a lot…. She divulge some of her background to me and I felt that she’s been very brave to go through all these and still able to find true happiness. She’s just ROM a yr ago, and recently celebrated their anniversary. Her hubby sent her a bouquet of 24 roses…or shld I say 23 + 1 because she told me she counted only 23 stalk...but when they met later in the evening, he presented her with the 24th stalk. How sweet right? =)
Anyway she told me some life experiences and told me this…”life is too short to be brooding over mundane problems when you can choose to live life to its fullest…”
Well, after some thot...what she said is right, why should we bother ourselves with so much problems and “waste” our lives away right? With that said, I hope to be able to try out her new motto..hopefully it can tide me through this “troubling” period. I am still a thinker….perhaps a leopard can never change its spots…
We’ll see how it all goes I guess…
It’s rather quiet in office today. Some pple have gone to Indonesia for a project, some out for support, some on leave, some half day etc etc…I wonder when we all go for the Philippines project, I think our office will be extremely deserted….
Oh well…I’m glad today’s Thursday..looking forward to Friday and then weekend again..I think I’ll need more rest this weekend…been too worn out this week…
I hope you had a beta week den I did....
Enjoy Peepz..
LOST
It is another rainy day again. Somehow the rain somehow depicts how I feel right now. Things hasn’t improved much since my last blog entry..coincidently, it was also raining that day….
Do you ever feel lost? Be it with someone, of something or just simply lost….
That is exactly how I feel right now…LOST!
Somehow I just can’t describe how I feel right now. Perhaps with the insecurity of what’s happening in my life right now…i just feel lost because no one seems to be able to see nor understand what I am going through right now. I can’t exactly describe either…it’s just seems like there’s this really dark cloud hovering across and I just can’t see my way through…
You know what…I don’t even know what exactly to write next…
*LOST*
