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Noobs!

My brain is almost fried now…I can’t believe that I’m being asked to come out with training exercises for the end users(for the project in Phil). Seriously, I am still as blind as them…maybe not like them..but it is almost like a blind leading the blind situation you know.
Maybe it’s my mood acting up or over-reacting, but I thot these are the things that should be down by the trainer themselves who would have known everything by the back of their hands? They should know what are the important areas to look at, to remember and maybe to practice one. But me???HUH??seriously…I’m still on probabtion you know. Officially I can still tender my resignation now and leave in a week’s notice. I’ll be long gone by the time the training starts…Sheesshhh..
Okay..i’m not contemplating to do that, just that I feel rather exploited because this should be my scope of work…at least for now since I’m such a noobie myself….Until I am a total pro…I probably wouldn’t be able to escape presentations, trainings etc etc. But now??I juz think it’s too early…I’m struggling right now cos I’m still not absolutely sure like at the back of my hands of certain stuffs and so I’m taking a lot more time than what a proper consultant would.
Somehow I feel I’m being asked to do this cos the trainer will be on leave and she prob can’t finish this in time…so as usual..I’m the scapegoat here while she can enjoy her leave…
Sigh…
Honestly, I’m beginning to feel that noobies are never treated fairly in any organization. I mean, let’s face it…we are fresg grads, we have no “real world” experience and it’s so easy to psycho us into believing that “these” are the things that we ought to do. Y? Simply because we are inexperienced!
Perhaps this is the way the world goes because as we gain more experience, the more money we get but the lesser work we do…If you ask me now, she’s definitely paid at least 3 times more than me but I’m doing most of the work because the slides are already done….If I’m being paid like that, I don’t mind…but with the peanuts pay….i feel exploited and “choked”! So many to do and so little time…
SHIT! As I’m writing this…another sequest is logged…and it’s directed to me again…I do wonder if the bosses know I’m doing her work man…sigh…that’s what noobies do huh? We clear all the tedious work while the experienced ones claim the credit…How convenient!
*Sigh….*

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 5:34 PM