Update 2
It is times like these when I know I need comfort, care and concern and that support to pull through this.....Instead, my parents havent been really supportive of the whole episode. Why? I think it's because they take my independence too much for granted that they expect me to handle everything myself.
The truth is, I'm kinda disappointed. Disappointed in the way they look at things in my perspective.
When I had felt something amiss last wednesday, they sorta dismissed it. Only when OML saw me he realised that perhaps a doctor's attention is needed. I didn't quite think of anything myself initially was because of my parents. The fact that they didn't see the severity of it.
Anyway, if not for OML, perhaps my face would have been alot serious? And he was the one who persuaded me to go for accupunture. Even his parents showed more concern towards me than mine. I must say that somehow, I'm disappointed by how my parents took this whole episode. If something like that happened to my brother, I'm sure they would have sought for the best doctors or specialist even? But for me, I'm supposed to do it all by myself, even when I'm the one who is supposed to be feeling all down and traumatized by what's happening. I don't mean to doubt their love for me, but I think they take my independence too much for granted.
OML has been the one by my side all these while, trying to accompany me to the accupunture sessions which I dun exactly look forward to. If he hadn't been there, I don't know if I could persist on. My parents havent even gone on one session with me even to the doctor and they still have the cheek to come nag me abt this. Telling me I shouldn't be bathing when I come home late at night blar blar and then sleeping in the air con because this is what happened etc etc.
I seriously don't need all these right now. I'm already saddened so much by this whole Bell's Palsy thing and yet they cannot be more sensitive to what I'm going through? I look like a freak for god's sake now! What else do they want from me? What comfort can they give me?
I just needed to get all these off my chest. It really hurts. The only solitude of comfort I can find now is OML. I think he is the only one who understands what I am going through right now.
He won't be able to accompany me for the next few accupunture sessions because he has a job to keep...he can't do this for me everyday....I do understand.
I just have to be strong for now I suppose...not for anyone else but for him and myself.
Road to recovery will not be easy...I'll need to have a lil more faith....
Labels: emo, tupid things, work shite
Blabbered by KaiRiNu at
9:44 AM
3 comment(s):
many parents don't know how to communicate to their children. i hope yours is like that and not because they don't care. maybe you've always been strong so they think you can think care of yourself and wouldn't want them to butt in?
let me know if you need a recommendation to a 2nd opinion. besides prayers, i guess i can only help with more info...
OML is a gem. :)
By
imp, at
10:18 AM
yeah, i guess some parents from the prev generation don't really know how to handle such situations. so my best guess is that they are feeling a bit lost at the moment and didn't know how to react.
regardless, just focus on resting and recovery now.. don't think too much ok?
and yes, a gold medal for OML! =) He's a keeper! *wink*
xoxoxo..
By
cherritan, at
10:37 AM
Tks ladies for the support...
I will keep the faith going and recover fully! :)
By
KaiRiNu, at
5:28 PM
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