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Complains....again!

Pardon me..Need to complain again!

Been feeling really down lately.

It’s like so many things happening altogether at once….and unfortunately…they aren’t good ones.

A new project is coming real soon and I was all excited because I thought I was going to have a bigger role this time round. But it turned out, I was going to do all the “dirty” work again.

It’s really tough having to always endure doing shit when you are a noob. People trample on you like you are some worthless chap in the corner and finds your worthiness when they need some shit to be cleared. It really sucks.

When I requested to attend another session of training to increase my knowledge and hopefully my ultimate independence…..I was rejected flat! Reason being, my boss thought that I did not have enough business knowledge as yet. Her advice? I was to involve myself more in the user support side, talk more to the users, and when I’m ready, I’ll be able to go for the training.
Hmm…but I always thought it’s the other way round, undergo training first, and when users gather to discuss any issues or requirements, I would then be able to say yes, possible, or simply no, not possible. Seems that I’m wrong?

R had a theory. He felt that there was a conspiracy behind my rejection to go for training….
You see, my company policy states that if they were to send you for training courses that costs over S$1000, they will need to bond you for a year. Having already gone for a previous training course that cost S$1500, I was already bonded a year since my course started. But if I were to sign up for another similar course, my bond will be concurrent, meaning my bond will start from a year again since my next course. So in R’s theory, my company will lugi – aka lose out. Because they sent me to 2 different courses but I get to be bonded for only more than a year…..How sad right if that’s really true. Come to think of it, they didn’t even need to pay for my previous course because they had some accumulated points thingy that they could just deduct from. Lame…I do feel abit cheated upon signing the bond…Darn!

I actually felt that the previous project gave me a lot of insight into business processes, how businesses are carried out and why. On top of that, the training gave me even more insight into SAP and it made me more confident when handling problems and troubleshooting. That’s why I felt that going for more training would make me more efficient when handling issues. Sadly, my boss does not think so….

The truth is...(I have my own theories as well) I think that my boss somehow don’t want me to proceed too fast in learning all the possible skills because in my module, there’s still my mentor who is capable of doing everything and she is not going anywhere. So I think my best position right now is to do whatever that is expected of me. Some shit job nobody wants to do…ME! So tedious work nobody wants to do…ME! Some work that nobody knows who should do it…ME! Call me the garang guni ger or wahever…that’s what I have been expected to do basically. Ironically there wasn’t in my contract nor my job scope. But…..(there’s always a but)the last clause in my job scope is to do whatever the boss expects me to! So? What to do? My boss expects me to do shit can I say no or complain? Nope! I can only complain in my blog….

I’m feeling so down and sad lately…I need a perk-me-up activity. However, I’m also saving up for my aussie trip…so basically I can’t do nothing! Spent so much on my blades already…hardly dare to spend too much. So…can’t go shopping, can’t go on expensive meals…tell me what else I can do that is cheap and yet a good perk-me-up remedy!
*sobz*

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 5:32 PM