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Sucky Monday

My boss is back…no more “freedom”. More work to do, which aren’t exactly within my job scope. *sigh*
Real bummer sometimes, but no choice. Noobs are treated such unfairly!

Well, just to update a lil on my weekend.
Hmm…let’s see..Ah Ha!
I told R I was going to blog this and I am!
We got a new pair of blades on the weekend and went blading Sun morning.
Guess what?
I FELL!!!!! Right on my right bum!!!!!
Thanks to my dear R, giving confusing “instructions” on how I should brake!
And ta dah! I fell! =(
Totally smashed my record of blading,skating,ice-skating, even cycling, without falling down!
Boy was that painful..and it still hurts mind you. Think there’s a blue black somewhere….okay..no graphical description please…I’m lame..just needed to take my mind off work. Bummer rite?
*sigh*
Just having a bad time at work again…boring..mono…and ever exploited.
I’m really really having Monday blues today for some reasons. Its like I’ve got things to do, I’ve done them but yet feeling uneasy.
While having lunch today, a colleague commented that I was being reserved, therefore I was not doing myself a great favour because I couldn’t really communicate with the senior mgmt pple, which includes my boss of course.
I’d agree to certain extend that I’m really much reserved compared to who I was a couple of years back…no..make that more than a couple of years back. I have forgotten how long it was when I was that cheeky crazy girl in school…it has really been quite awhile. *gasps* I’m getting old…Whateva,side track!
I miss those times really. Never really knew what changed me or if I wasn’t exactly myself then at all. It’s still a mystery actually….I still haven’t found myself? Perhaps…
I’ve tried asking myself what changed me? Was it because I wanted to change? Or was it really because circumstances made me change? It’s such a sticky debate. Or maybe I was just waiting for a reason to change, and when it happen, I took it without reservations.
So the question is now….Should I change back to this crazy girl style or just be me? Laid back, just doing my work and not talking much? I really don’t know…
I think I don’t know myself that much…not as much as I thot I did…
How can I return and find myself? Is there ever a way? =-( I hate being me right now!
*sobz*

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 4:46 PM