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Wow..it’s been more than 11 days since my last blog. Been rather down lately, totally immersed in the “blues” (not in music terms) but more of the gloomy, rainy kinda blue…

Yup, somehow my mood was pretty much reflected by the rain the past week…well…somehow..
Was a tad lazy too, purely because there din seemed much to blog about lately…I seemed to have lost my zest in a lot of things lately…even shopping…yes..u’ve heard me right alright…I’ve actually lost zest in shopping!

Consider that shopping does wonders for some gers…supposedly…I’m starting to doubt if I am female after all…I mean…which female in the world loses her interest in shopping????
*gasps in horror*
*runs round pulling my hair* (Yes I am crazy!) =p

Just imagine…I’m actually losing interest in shopping…how crazy is that? Yes…I am known to be crazy at times…but this time I think I somehow really lost it.

I would love to go shopping and stuffs…but looking at the rate my bank amount is depreciating…tell me how zestful I should be feeling? And not to mention my next trip to Aussie land that will bring me another few k down again….*wails*

Why is it so hard to earn a decent living nowadays?

I had a conversation with Daz sometime back regarding my salary. I was lamenting how I felt rather unjust that I wasn’t even qualified to apply for a personal credit card. His reply….I was being materialistic!

So…I thought about it for awhile, thinking if I was truly being materialistic and all…so…let’s see…
Definition of – Materialistic
materialistic
adj 1: marked by materialism [syn: mercenary, worldly-minded] 2: conforming to the standards and conventions of the middle class
ma·te·ri·al·ism n.
1. Philosophy. The theory that physical matter is the only reality and that everything, including thought, feeling, mind, and will, can be explained in terms of matter and physical phenomena.
2. The theory or attitude that physical well-being and worldly possessions constitute the greatest good and highest value in life.
3. A great or excessive regard for worldly concerns
-courtesy of www.dictionary.com
Okay…worldly possessions…a great regard for worldly concerns…..hmmm…
I don’t think that hoping to qualify for a credit card is to cry out having a great regard for worldly concerns…

To me, it’s more like a personal milestone that I would like to achieve or obtain. You see….theoretically I’ve studied for 22 years of my life….went overseas for a degree, finally coming back with a second upper class honours, with a mere 5% to first class honours….and here I am…not being able to even qualify for a personal credit card?

It’s not about expecting a big salary in the beginning…but it’s more of the perception of your value as an individual. I started work @1500 per month as a freshie out of school….and until today…about a year and slightly more than half a year of experience, I’m still not qualified…..
I somehow just felt rather disappointed. I mean, if this is about materialism, why don’t I just get a rich bf/husband and just forget about working entirely? I can just sit back relax and be a tai tai all I want, why would I even be concerned about my salary. It’s more about recognition and a personal milestone that I wish to achieve in life…otherwise, why would I even bother to study honours and put myself through hell for another year after degree? At the end of the day it’s about knowing that my efforts paid off and that I did not disappoint my parents and prove to them that I can achieve something in life after all.

Ultimately it’s the recognition and the sense of belonging that emphasizes whether the company values your contribution as an individual. Yes, perhaps monetary recognition can seemed rather shallow in certain ways, but this is definitely the basics to start with. As your experience grows, you get promotion, more responsibilities ya duh ya duh…don’t you get a higher pay as well with your qualifications? I mean, you don’t expect bosses to hold major responsibilities and still hold a 2K over salary right? If so, why is our PM paid so much more compared to the President of USA?

Enough said….Bottom line…I just want to achieve my first milestone! Hopefully soon! =)

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 3:49 PM