K for Komplexity...

Crappy Stuffs

Freaking tiring week! I’m really frustrated with the shit I have to put up with and the frustrations I have towards work! I’ve been having too much headaches, too little sleep and definitely no fun! It’s been so exhausting all entire week that I feel so extremely drained! I feel listless, no energy, no motivation, and simply no morale!

Everything seems to be going all wrong this week. I simply couldn’t understand the rationale of it all happening all in a week!

I’ve been telling R lately that one should always sow good karma to reap the good return that comes in various different forms. Unfortunately I haven’t been too lucky lately and I’ve been wondering if it’s got something to do with my karma efforts. Whatever that I’ve been doing, I keep hitting on road-blocks.! Arrghhs!!!

The truth is I haven’t been doing much lately except work, I don’t even have enough energy to plan if I wanted to do anything special for my birthday. It even came to a point where I am not even looking forward to my birthday. I’m actually not at all excited about it. In fact, I’m dreading it. Because soon after my birthday, the project will be starting the very next week! I’m so not looking forward to it! =(
Anyway birthdays seem less and less colorful as you grow older. And not to mention the birthday greetings and the birthday pressies.

I must admit guiltily that I do enjoy birthday pressies and birthday surprises, especially when they come from special people. Haha…I sound like a kid who yearns for birthday parties, birthday pressies and birthday surprises. I guess the truth is that as a kid, I was kinda deprived. I didn’t hold much birthday parties as a kid nor did I celebrate in any lavish form. I remembered how I used to envy my cousins celebrating birthdays at fast food outlets like McDonalds or Burger King. I never really gotten such birthday parties before! Unfortunately I’m too old now…Ha!
The only time I felt really special was actually my 18th birthday when I parents actually took the liberty to book a chalet for me, arranged a buffet for all my friends, a big birthday cake and even served cold beer cocktail…when some of my frens weren’t even 18 yet! But heck…I truly enjoyed myself then! It was like…wow…it’s MY special day sort of feeling. My previous birthdays were like…no happening, nothing special or whatsoever, it was just boring! I didn’t even celebrated my 21st birthday in Singapore!

Anyway I’m feeling real pissy lately. I’ve been loaded so much things and expected to do so much yet taught so little! Looking on the bright side, either these people think I’m a genius or that they simply don’t care and expect me to try and stay alive in the deep blue sea myself! I’ve really had to about here!

Where’s the exit?

*sobz*

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 5:17 PM