K for Komplexity...

Peeved

I'm peeved today.

Because I've really had enuff of people putting me down like I know nothing!

Eveyone loves to throw me things to do and not lift a freaking finger to help me.

Never mind that! But the fact that they act like they are my boss really puts me of!!!

Today is the UAT. The users apparantly aren't independent enough with the system and so every now and then they call for me.

I don't have problems helping them, it's juz that at times, the problems that they face aren't really my module yet they prefer to ask me. So I had to ding dong between the other consultants and get them to help out instead.

The thing is, right now I'm assigned to a huge module and yet I have a "sideline" to handle as well. This "sideline" wasn't really my main responsibility, but the Big Ego man conveniently shoves it to me when my boss told him I could help out. So there, it became my problem rather than his. His job was only to talk and mine was to out everything into action.

Never mind that, because at the end of the day I can learn something, and if I ever leave one day, I would love to see him fret and let him taste what is life without me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean that I all mighty and powerful. The truth is, he couldn't be bothered about the whole "sideline" thing that we had to carry out, so he uses my boss to conveniently washes everything off his hands by assigning everything to me and letting me swim in the cold sea....so...when I leave, I make sure I leave with everything that I found out the hard way and let him scrabble the rest of it himself.

And my supptosedly colleague/mentor who's suppose to guide me, she surprised me today. We suaully are on good terms and all, we share things, opinions etc. But she, being very experienced in her field, tend to belittle me alot when it comes to the system's knowledge.

Yes, her experience and knowledge is definately more than me any day. And yes perhaps sometimes I'm a lil blur and a lil careless because I'm unsure of stuffs...
But today, I thought she was a lil too much.

Because when I told her that there was some problem in the configuration, she totally blew me off, saying it was the way I created the data and not because of config. Since I was so busy with the users, I had no time to react and test it out. In the end she saw that it wasn't my data, it was the config.

Just because I am the junior around here doesn't mean what I say is wrong or made no sense, I'm slowly learning and picking things up. So stop judging me like I know nothing and that if there's anything wrong, it's cos of what I did that affected the system.

Never mind her being all skeptical about me, but what really surprised me was the fact that she chose to take some freaking quiz in order to get a 100 bucks Robinson's voucher totally peeved me!

The story is that recently there was hype about get certified blar blar. SO there was this quiz given my SAP that if we were to pass, we would be given 100 bucks Robinsons voucher. So she went to take the test whole afternoon and not lift a finger to help even though she knew I had lots of other things on my plate. I was utterly disappointed. And when I kiddingly asked if I could ask her if I have any problems, she quipped "Then u give me 50 dollars lor." Again I was loss for words. How much does she earn compared to me and she's fussing over 50 bucks for helping me out? Unbelivable!And I thought she and I were friends, and friends would help each other out like what I did for her....apparantly I was mistaken. Colleagues are still colleagues, it's never the same as friends?

I don't know how to feel right now. I'm starting to dread every morn I go to work. I just don't feel the same enthusiasm I had before...I wonder if its time I move on...

Blabbered by KaiRiNu at 8:30 PM