Lost....
Lately I seemed to have lost myself somehow. Not exactly sure why but it seems that I don’t know myself anymore…*lost*How often do we see ourselves through a 3rd person’s point of view? Do you think you know yourself better than anyone else?
I used to think I know myself very well, in terms of my preferences, my character and the way I view things. In fact, all along I thot I was an extrovert all along, but recently, I’ve realized that perhaps I’m much more of an introvert than I thot I was….
Looking back, I’ve had my fair share of life changing experiences, some good, some bad, some had a real impact in my life…
I’ve always thot that I’m really a jovial, fun-living and someone full of energy kind of person, but….there’s always a but….something happened in my JC years that kinda changed a big part of my life…I toned down a lot since, thinking that I was somehow “defeated” I guess. It was like a whole new discovering myself again procedure….but I guess I was never really the same ol’ me again. It was like I was trying to hide a part of me so that I wun remember certain things….I never really got over it I suppose, I probably was still running away and trying so hard to hide from it…I’m starting to wonder if this is a good thing or a bad thing…
Perhaps I was trying too hard to re-invent myself, perhaps not. I’m not exactly sure if environment played a part in my “losing myself” idea, but something is surely happening to me…if only I knew….
Is the old me trying to break free? Or is it something that I really was now that I’m trying to hide?
I wonder….
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